IKWYDLS

I do love you

<Camilas P.O.V>
I left upset, I even cried a little when I left the food court. I could feel Shawn behind me so I walked faster into my car. When I noticed a car driving really fast towards Shawn. Before I went in I stared outside, Shawn wasn't looking at the car, In fact he didn't even see it.. It was all white.

<At the hospital>
Shawns mom, Karen, Manuel Aaliyah, and my family were all in the break room. I was outside the door they took Shawn through. "He will be okay" my mom says. I didn't even realize I was shaking. This was all my fault. He wasn't supposed to be following me. I shouldn't even have came here to see him.

I saw Laur breaking in the through the doors. "Oh my god. WHAT HAPPENED??" She screamed. She looked at Karen. Karen and I explained everything to her. I asked all the doctors that came out of his room what's happening. All of them said the same thing. "Just have hope and faith" it got me even more worried, I fell to the ground and it all went black.

"Camila!" "Camila wake up" I heard Sofi and Aaliyah say. "Oh my gosh, I had an awful dream." I looked around the room, and panicked. I had hope this was all a bad nightmare. I saw a doctor with a board coming out of Shawns room looking for someone.

"Family of.. Shawn Mendes" he spoke we all got up. "We have good and bad news."

"WHAT HAPPENED? Is he okay—poor Shawn—just tell us—please." I said I'm desperation.

"Calm down Camila" They said.

"The good news is that he has awoken we took tests and luckily he didn't damage anything.. TOO BAD, bad news is that he has a broken leg, and he will use the wheel chair for about 2 or 3 months" He said. I bursted crying.

"This is all my fault." I bursted I dropped myself to my knees. Laur stood there looking worried.

"Camila this had nothing to do with you, he walked out on his own, he's fine now but don't blame yourself" Karen said. I still cried.

"He's never going to forgive me for this. I don't think I can forgive myself." I sat down.

"Don't say that—" Karen started but the docter interrupted.

"Uh Shawn wants to see a girl named.. Laur" She quickly got up and ran. I knew it. Shawn loves her more than he ever loved me. I started thinking about how just yesterday was his birthday, and I ruined his 18. He got hit by a car. And it was my fault. I can't imagine how much he hates me right now. I should just leave. I don't think he wants to see me anyways. I was still crying.

Laur came out, and looked at me. "Camila!" She screamed before I could get a hold of the door. "Um Shawn wants to see you—" I dropped my jacket.

"He does?" I was walking towards her.

"Yeah, go." She said pointing. I ran to room 310. I went in and wiped my tears. His eyes were shut but when I stood next to him he opened them. He smiled.

"Oh Shawn." I cried. "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean for any of this to happen I kno—" Shawns lips touched mine. I didn't know what to feel. I felt guilty. I pulled away. He was still smiling. God he's so cute.

"Shawn no," his smile turned into a frown.

"What?" He finally said.

"This is all my fault—" he grabbed my hands.

"Stop." He smiled. "YOU didn't do anything, stop blaming yourself, it hurts me to see you hurt" he said.

"Well... Shawn.." I looked down. "I hate to see YOU like THIS, and knowing its my, my fau—" he kissed me again.

"Shawny" I said smiling but pulling away. "You have a girlfriend, if you don't remember" I said.

"We broke up" he said smiling.

"What. When? How did you even have time—" I said.

"When she came in..." Wow, I can't believe he broke up with her.

"That isn't right." I said.

"Why not?" He said.

"Because, why did you do that for?" I mumbled.

"For YOU. Camila don't you understand I love YOU. Nobody else but YOU" I didn't say anything. "What?" He asked confused. "You don't love me?" He asked.

"Well Shawn, that's not it."

"Then." He insisted.

"I do love you. But it's not the right time. YOU JUST GOT HIT BY A CAR. And it was my fault. How could you possibly think about that." He got mad.

"Camila, I—" he said cracking. "After all we have gone through don't you think we both deserve a second chance, in love"

"Shawn it's not the right time." I hesitated.

He complained, like if he was a five year old throwing a tantrum. "What do you mean?
I—"

"Shawn I mean, you need to recover, at least eight weeks, and after this tell me if you still feel the same, we will meet up and talk about this."

"8 weeks! Mila that's too much!" He said.

"I feel like every time we are together we hurt each other. And that's not fair for neither of us."

He didn't speak to me. The doctors came and told me it was time to go. "Fine, but I don't think I will feel the same way about this" I got upset when he said that. Of course I will visit him but I didn't tell him that.

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When I got home, my phone was blowing up. My friends were texting me, and I decided to post a video about it since the whole world wanted to know what was happening.

I got on you now. "Hi guys," I sounded so sad. I checked to make sure at least 16,000 people were watching.

"Um, so I know you guys know why I am on" "to explain about everything."

So Shawn and I are not dating if you're still wondering. He is in recovery, um he won't be attending his upcoming shows for health issues. I was crying but I managed to stop. So I'm reading your guys' comments and you are all very nice Shawn is not in serious trouble. I don't know when he will be coming back to his tour, I guess it will just have to reschedule, but for now he won't be attending anything, he is traveling to Toronto first thing tomorrow morning. To be at home, his whole family came here with him, but he's fine, he broke some stuff, but they told us that he should recover fully in a few months. Did Shawn ask you out, I read from the live chat Um that's very personal and obviously if he had asked me out I wouldn't have said that we aren't dating so.. No. But either way I wouldn't say to 16000 people on a live stream, ON THE INTERNET that sort of stuff. But no, I'm really sorry though all those people that wanted to see him, I promise the dates will reschedule. Well I have to end this short. Um Shawn is actually not here right now, I thought he was going to be here with me to do the live chat, but he chose not to, so bye, best wishes and I love you all. I signed out.

I don't know why I told Shawn it wasn't time, I mean it wasn't... I think I made the right decision. At this moment the girls viewed the YouNow stream I made, obviously none of them could travel to Miami right now. They were with their families. But they all insisted to come. Lauren was in Hawaii, so she didn't even know what had happened. But the rest of the girls came.

"Why did you tell him that? You both love each other what's the hold up?" Normani said.

"I don't know, I don't feel like it's the best time right now" I confessed.

"Well we are going to visit him first thing tomorrow morning," Dinah said.

"He's headed off to Canada" I hesitated.

"We will visit him Camila. You guys have to make up before he leaves." Normani said.

We all agreed, and went to sleep. 

A/n: not my best. I'm running out of ideas, so if you guys have any suggestions for the next chapter please comment🍃🍃 I really do appreciate it if you do, you can just leave like little scenes or a suggestion, or just make something up, everything helps. Also comment what you think, add this to your reading list, if you haven't already and share it with your friends, and vote ! It really does help🐾🐾