IKWYDLS

Us?

Camilas POV
ARI: wifeey we need to talk asap! Come to my dressing room after the show💘
Me: kk❤️

The show was over, and Justin and I were holding hands to my room and then I was going to meet up with Ariana later. I opened my door which had a big sign that said "CAMILA CABELLO."

I walked in and Justin came behind me, our hands let go and I sat on my big brown leather couch. He sat next to me and we were just talking about our music, and what the future might hold for us.

He started giving me advice about keeping a smile on my face and that the music industry will always be tough but it's about who you surround yourself with and I have to make sure I am doing what I love.

One thing led to another and we were sleeping together. I woke up on his chest. His shirt smelled so clean, and fresh. I quickly grabbed my phone and saw 2 missed calls from Ariana.

Shit. I totally forgot. I got up and did my hair, I left Justin sleeping because... well he looks like a little angel sleeping. So I didn't wake him.

"Hey Ariana, I got your message sorry I came late—" I stopped talking cause I saw something I didn't want to see.

I sighed. I didn't even want to describe what was happening.

I didn't even know what I was feeling.

I felt a huge—no gigantic—knot on my stomach I felt a burning feeling in my chest.

"Camila ! Um I thought you weren't coming" Ariana said buttoning her shirt. Which wasn't her shirt. It was one of Shawns.

"Um. Nope. I'm here" I said looking left and right avoiding eye contact with any of them.

"Uhm Mila! I can explain" he said. He stood up kinda losing balance since Ariana was in front of him but he put his hand on her shoulder. He made his way to be standing in front of me and smiled.

"Shawn why would you need to explain something like this to me?! I know how it goes and it's your guys' relationship" I said moving towards Ariana. You could obviously hear the pain in my voice when I said that but I ignored it.

"Camila.. Are you really cool with this?" She asked.

"Yeah why wouldn't I be.." At this point I had no control over my cracked voice.

I stood still staring at Shawn in a disappointed way. Ariana got her stuff and left us alone.

"Camila Can we talk?" He asked grabbing my arm. "I know we haven't talked in months,  but are you still mad after what happened?"

"Of course I'm not mad I have been going on about my life super happy, since my boyfriend cheated on me I was so ecstatic, but besides that, no, I'm, I'm not mad" I said sarcastically with a fake smile on my face.

"Well you never let me explain what really happened—"

"I ALREADY know what REALLY happened, I saw it and I don't care if you remember or not you still did it, and you seemed pretty awake to be knocked out" I said.

"Okay, no exception I still did it. But it's been a long time I have apologized do you really still hate me?" He asked with those gorgeous brown eyes that sparkled everytime he spoke.

"I never hated you, you just never tried to reach out to me, you've never made the effort to apologize or speak to me about it" I said.

"What? I have tried reaching you a billion times your manager always came in the way. I tried DMing you hundreds of times but you blocked me, and I lost your follow. You never followed me back." he said looking down. God I felt like a bitch, I really never followed him back after I unblocked him..

I tried to get close, but our eyes met and I could tell he was leaning in. "No," I hesitated looking away. "Just because we are talking does not mean we are getting back together or kissing anytime soon" I said and he gave me some space. Wait am I forgetting something?

"And why were you trying to kiss me? I just saw you with Ariana isn't she your girlfriend now?" I said in a rude way.

"What happened between me and Ariana wasn't even supposed to happen—it was a mistake."

"Yeah," I looked up at him. "I don't think she feels that way."

"Fine well even if she doesn't feel that way, I will make sure to tell her that there is absolutely nothing going on between us and there will never be."

"God." I exhaled heavily. "You think you can snap your fingers and have any girl you want." I pointed at his chest. "You think that in one word you can dump the girl and get the other one" he rolled his eyes but I finished what I was supposed to say. "Well guess what, that's not gonna happen this time, so get over it" I said my index finger touching his chest one last time.

"Camila!" He said lightly but a bit loud. He pulled me up against the wall with my arms in his hands. "Is that what you think I do?" He said breathing in my face.

"Oh come on," I tried to get myself out of his hands but his body seemed to be more muscular, "isn't that what you did with me. You were done with me and you wanted someone else so you grabbed Laur and had sex with her. And now you're doing the same thing with Ariana and I." I sounded really pissed off.

"I always loved YOU. I told you about what happened with Laur and I. Ariana and I—that was never supposed to happen, I swear we were just confused, and nothing more than what you saw ever happened." He says he loves me but does he?

"Look," I felt my eyes watery, "I want to believe you. I do. It's just I don't want to get hurt again. " I mumbled.

"I won't hurt you. I didn't even mean to hurt you those times. You know I only try to protect you and if I end up hurting you it's because of stupid mistakes. Can we give "us" a try again?"

Us? Is this supposed to mean he wants to get back with me?

I wiped off my tears. I laughed a little. "I don't know Shawn." He grabbed my hands. And for a second I forgot about Justin.

Thinking about him, he walked in on our moment "What's this Mendes? Huh?!!" He grabbed me behind him. And puffed up his chest towards Shawn. Why does every mad guy call him by his last name?

"Justin we were just talking" I said putting my hand on his chest.

"Why are you crying?" He spoke in a lovely way, gosh he's so caring.

I wiped my tears quickly, "I'm not. Really. I'm not" I said pulling his arm.

"Did you make her cry?" He spoke rapidly to Shawn, almost not letting him answer the question. "Don't you get it Mendes? She doesn't want you. All you ever did was cause her trouble. She has to go to the emergency room because she's not eating—"

I stopped their conversation by getting in between them and pushing Justin. "Justin, he doesn't need to know what happens to me," I breathed heavily, "like I said before we were just talking" I took a quick 3 second glance at Shawn and looked at Justin.

"Okay let's get out of here then." He put a finger on my shoulder sort of indicating he was following me.

I walked out of the room, and our hands intertwined.

A/N:
sorry for not posting !!
another chapter coming
out early this week.