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● Bokuto Koutarou : They Don't Know

*Bokuto's POV*

"Hey, Koutarou," her voice could be heard. "Oi! Baka! Wake up!"

My eyes slowly opened to see the usual face of (F/N). Her head was tilted to match mine and she looked angry.

"Did you stay up to practice last night again?" she asked with worry written all over her face. I chuckled and yawn ignoring her question. She softly punched my arm and took a seat beside my desk.

"Well you don't have to tell me, Akaashi-kun already did," she answered her own question and looked at me. "I understand you have to work twice as hard because the finals of the spring tournament is soon, but you have to take care of your health too Koutarou."

I smiled and reached over to pat her head.

"Thanks for worrying about me (F/N)," I said and planted a kiss on her forehead. She knew how I was and gave a pout not convinced that I was going to stop the late night practices.

"How about after the practice game this weekend, let's go eat out?" she asked with a bright smile on her face. I laughed and nodded, "Ok! Let's go eat some barbecued meat!"

She lifted her pinky and we swore that day was going to be our next date.

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As the days went by I continued to work extra hard. I am the captain and ace of Fukurodani's volleyball team so I couldn't put down my team so easily. That night as the game ended, I became frustrated. All of my attacks were blocked and even the rest of the team was having trouble. This new school we went against was on a whole other level. We ended up losing that game, and it made us all sulk.

"Hey..." (F/N)'s voice could be heard from behind me. I was now alone in the locker rooms to go over what I did wrong on the courts.

"Let's go home," she said as she slowly walked towards me. My head was hung low as my jersey was still on.

"You were great out there so-" (F/N) spoke up again but I cut her off.

"Everyone always say that!" I snapped at her. From the corners of my eyes I could see that she was shocked.

"Koutarou!" she shouted back and sighed. "You should be proud that even the team held on with you together. You guys were all in together so it's not all your fault-"

"Shut up (F/N)," I glared at her. "They don't know...YOU don't know what it feels like!"

I saw that she reached her hand for my head but I hit it away.

"Leave me alone," I turned around facing my back towards her.

"...okay, I'll go home first then," she mumbled backing away from me. "Goodbye Koutarou."

Her figure was gone in a second and I buried my fingers in my hair in frustration. I quickly stood up and grabbed my bag before following after her. I made it out of the gymnasium to see that the sun was down and the moon was up. I continued to run out the school campus and towards the way to (F/N)'s house. When I reached there I was told that she hasn't returned home yet. At first I thought she was sad and didn't want to see me but later that night I found out what happened.

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Lights. Screams from the audience. The volleyball courts. They were all something I enjoyed the most. I love it when I walk into the stadium to see the huge lights shining upon the volleyball courts as if it was a momentous thing. From the seats, many citizens would be screaming excited to see the best schools play against each other. I remembered deeply as though it was placed into my blood how excited every step I took in that stadium was. But today, right now, I feel disgusted by everything. Just looking at the court waiting in front of me made me wanted to turn away and leave. Every game I went to, every court I enter, she was always there. But today, she wasn't. And that was when reality hit me in the face. That she was really gone. That night that we promised to go eat out became a night I wished I could return to fix. Because I was selfish and only thought of how I felt, I hurt the girl I loved the most. On that night I still remembered clearly. As I was about to leave her house, I received a phone call. Before I knew it, my feet ran as fast as it could to the hospital.

"Hello is this a relative of the owner of this phone? If so, the young lady has gotten into an accident and is in critical condition. Please come immediately to the Yasuo Medical Hospital."

I reached the hospital with no time wasted and ran to find where she was at. As I reached the emergency room my heart was at the verge of stopping. My breathing became hard and I felt as though I would faint at any second. The doctor stepped out not long after to tell me that she didn't make it and that her last words were 'I'm sorry'.

I held onto my heart as I fell to my knees. It possibly couldn't be. We were just talking about an hour ago and now she's gone. I ended up not getting any sleep the following months. I refused to go to volleyball practice at all cost but Akaashi hit some sense into me. But then again it all comes down to me. They don't know what it feels like to lose someone they dearly hold onto. They don't know how it hurts everyday to see that no one was waiting for me and smiling just for me. They don't know how it tears me apart to walk alone and pretend that everything inside me is okay. As much as I tried to get through with it, they would never know how painful it is to know that the last words I told her was, 'Leave me alone' and not knowing that I'd be alone for the rest of my life.

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□ A/N:
this is quite short . . . i apologize /bows/
i hope you enjoy the angst with Bokuto ~
thank you for requesting brokutos ! ♡
up next shall be Oikawa with some angst as well XD
my heart is hurting writing all these angst onff- /goes off to cry a river/