BETTER THAN I CAN EVER HOPE FOR IN MY ENTIRE LIFE Book Four

Bella attempts sucide again

                                    Bpov

It's been a week and Edward had a cot put in here for him to sleep on. Carlisle and him got into a fight about Edward sleeping on the bed with me. Usually Edward doesn't stay mad very long but he hasn't talk to me since that day. The only time he comes in here now is to sleep. It's really starting to kill me inside. I never seen him so angry.

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Carlisle threaten to bring a hospital bed in if Edward didn't stop sleeping on the bed with me. I over heard them yelling at each other.
It was causing the wound on my leg to open up. Carlisle and Edward started to argue and it was getting louder outside the door. Well they didn't think I heard them or something.

  I finally threw the digital clock as hard as I could at the door and it smashed it little pieces. They open the door and I signed to them and they knew I was mad. Stop fighting over me and if you think about bringing a hospital bed in this house you might as well send me back to the hospital because I will not stay here and watch this happen. Edward please stop fighting this. I got hurt it's not your fault. I know you're blaming yourself for this. All of it. It's not your fault Angel died either, so stop it now. I can't take this over me no more.

They both just stood there looking at me a minute. Edward gave me that look like I was going to do something stupid. I signed to him.
How could you even think that Edward. I know that look Edward it may of been a while since I seen it. Yes it's crossed my mind. I'm sorry I know I promise you. But you didn't see Angel like I did. You did not almost lose your leg. On top of everything else your ex is trying to kill me. Sure why not make it easier for and Charlie...

"BELLA STOP IT NOW!" Carlisle snapped out. Edward hands were balled up into fist and his face was red. He finally walked away and we heard the front door slam. "Bella why would you even think about killing yourself again. Do you know what that would do to Esme and me or even worse Edward?" We were interrupted by Thomas came running into the room.

"Why is daddy so red in the face and why he leave?" He asked me. I turned and looked at Carlisle. Carlisle walked over and sat on the edge of the bed. "He's mad Thomas. I think at both your mother and I. But one thing about your father he never could stay mad very long." I think this time Carlisle was wrong.

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  Edward didn't come back until the next day. When he did the next night he stood at the doorway just looking at me before he turned and walked away. Today Carlisle said I was finally allowed out of bed and I could slowly put weight on that leg but not without help. "Esme and Rose helped me up and got cleaned up. I only put on a nightgown and a robe.

We slowly walked out into the living room and they helped me on the couch. The fire was going. Emmett and Thomas were playing on the video game. Julie was in the swing. Edward was sitting on the couch across the room. "Bella sweetie, let me tell you April and everyone's all excited about coming up for Christmas. Plus Phillips said he was coming."

I gave Esme a weak smile and nodded. I turned my head and looked at Edward again. He locked eyes with me only for a moment and then got up and put his jacket on and walked out of the house.

I closed my eyes and just sighed then I signed to Esme to take me back to my room. She asked me if I was alright and I just signed I was really sore. Once back in the room I was by myself. I don't know how long I sat there before I took my ivs off and slowly got up and walked to the bedroom door and locked it.

 Tears started running down my face as I was thinking Edward can't stand me no more and he won't even talk it out with me. "AAARRRGGGHHH!" I finally screamed out while I wrapped my arms around my stomach. I just stood there in the middle of the room. I could hear Carlisle and Emmett at the door beating on it and yelling to let them in but I couldn't move.