I'm not worthy of your love.
I'm not worthy of your time.
I'm not worthy of you.
I'm am just unworthy.
I cannot say this enough times in a day
I'm sorry.
None of you belive me
NONE.
I've tried for many years not
To let my tears out
I've practiced faking a smile
I've told lies to keep you safe but no!
That's never good enough for you!
I just want to be left alone with
My blades
Drawing pictures that hit the vein
Causing my life to strain
Making everyone
Happy and free without
Me holding them down with
All my problems
"You're and attention whore"
One says
"You're ugly and fat"
They all say
So then give me rope
Give me a chair
I'll leave you jump off the chair
Leaving you nothing
but a pale girl
Who has broken her promise
To stay alive.
To stay here.
YOU ARE READING
Loud Pøetry Spilled From The Quiet Soul
PoesiaAll of these are mine. Not the Internet. Trigger warning. (Self mutilation, depression, anorexia, etc....) And my apologies if they aren't even slow to Bukowski or Anything....I just wanted to try