"You ready to go?" Mike asked glancing over at me as he reached over grasping my hand.
"I guess." I took in a deep breath staring up at my house as my husband and I sat in the car. "I am scared that once I get inside that I will see all these things pictures of you and I. You remember everything and I don't. I want to..." I confessed causing him to turn facing me.
"It isn't your fault that you don't remember everything. Over the past few days you've been remembering a lot." Mike gently placed a hand on my face.
"Not all of it though. Not the most important things. Not our wedding." I bit my lip.
"That's okay." Mike gently kissed my lips. "I love you baby... I love you so so much." I couldn't help to blush as Mike kissed my cheek time after time.
"Let's go." I sighed opening Mike's truck door jumping out. Mike rushed over to me lifting me off of my feet causing me to giggle as he carried me towards the porch. "Mike!" I screamed once he jumped as if he was about to drop me.
"You're so cute." He laughed putting me down and kissing my nose causing me to giggle. "Oh my gosh stop. You're so... I don't even know." Mike pulled me against him, leaning down kissing me passionately. I was completely caught off guard once I felt Mike's hands run over my butt softly grabbing it.
"What's wrong?" I questioned as he pulled away from me completely looking somewhat frustrated.
"I need to control myself around you." Mike answered taking the house keys out of his pocket unlocking the door.
"Why do you say that?"
"Because you aren't ready... I'm not angry that you aren't but... I just need to control myself. Not take things so far." Mike replied causing me to bite my lip nodding my head. "You seem upset." Mike added. He was right. I was upset. I feel bad that Mike thinks he has to "control himself" around me. I just wish none of this happened. I hate myself for not remembering all these things.
"I am okay." I bit my lip turning away from him walking up the stairs, a small tear falling from my eye once I reached the top. I walked into mine and Mike's room taking off my shoes, lying on the bed then pulling the covers over me.
"Care... Are you crying?" I herd Mike say causing me to bite my lip. "I am sorry if what I said upset you." He apologized sitting on the edge of the bed. "Baby can we talk about it-"
"I don't want to. I really don't Mike." It was obvious to Mike now that I was upset. I hate that I can't remember anything. I hate that I can't be ready to have sex with Mike. I wish I was but I'm not. I can't change that no matter how bad I want to.
"Well. I am sorry. I am gonna go get some things out of the truck, is it okay if I sleep in here?"
"Whatever you want." I quietly answered. I heared Mike walk out of the room and down the stairs. I sat up, removing my shirt then my pants walking over and looking through the dresser for a shirt of Mike's. Once I found one long enough to cover my bottom I laid back in bed, my husband soon entering the room.
I jumped once I felt him wrap his arms around me under the covers, me immediately realizing that he was shirtless.
"Care. I can't go to sleep knowing you're upset. Look at me baby." I turned facing my husband tears still running down my face. "Sweetie." He sighed cupping my face with both hands gently wiping the tears away as they fell down my face.
"I hate that I'm not ready. I want to be so bad Mike... But I know I'm not. I hate that I don't remember everything and that all of this happened." I continued crying unable to control myself. "Most of all I hate that you think you have to control yourself around me." I added causing him to pull me closer to him.
"I never meant to hurt your feelings, at all. Don't be upset with yourself either sweetie..." Mike said hugging me tightly as I rested my head on his shoulder. "None of this is your fault. I didn't mean for you to be hurt by what I said...I wasn't meaning I have to control myself in a bad way." He added biting his lip hoping she'd forgive him.
"Promise? Are you uncomfortable with me now?"
"Of course not baby. I love you so much sweetheart." Mike replied before softly kissing her lips.
"I love you too... Goodnight."
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