I woke up turning over to say 'good morning' to my husband but he was gone. Which concerned me because he doesn't have practice durning the summer and he would've told me if he was going to go somewhere.
"Hello?" Mike said answering his phone me immediately hearing noises in the back ground. "Baby your up early." Mike added me becoming confused.
"Not exactly. Where are you?" I asked.
"I'll be home soon." He said before hanging up. That was weird. But I decided to just brush it off considering the last thing I need to be doing right now is worrying. I'm now four months pregnant and as much as I am excited to meet our little angel I hate being pregnant. I am miserable. All the time. My feel are always swollen, I constantly feel uncomfortable, I spend part of my day throwing up time after time. My back always hurts and I can't even seem to control my emotions. I hate it when Mike isn't here with me. I feel so lonely all the time and I need someone to talk to about everything.
I walked down the stairs after putting on a sweat shirt of Mike's and a pair of black Nike Pro's. I made me a light breakfast. Organic oat pancakes with vanilla almond milk. I sat down at the island in the middle of the kitchen and began eating. I miss Mike. We always eat breakfast together. But when I called he didn't even tell me where he went he just hung up.
"Morning babe." I herd from the living room as the front door closed. I sighed as Mike walked into the kitchen walking over placing a kiss on my forehead.
"Don't 'morning babe' me. Mike where were you?" I asked looking over at him seriously.
"Your breakfast looks great." Mike smiled softly kissing my cheek.
"Don't avoid my question Mike." I scowled. "Where?" I repeated.
"I was at Ivey's." Mike answered looking away from me.
"Wh... Why?" I questioned worriedly.
"Carrie..." Mike sighed.
"Wait... Are you. Are y'all sleeping together?" I said placing my elbows on the table putting my head in my hands. "I knew this would happen." I mumbled to myself. I knew that me not wanting to have sex would have Mike getting greedy.
"What do you mean you knew this would happen? Carrie I didn't sleep with her." Mike said causing me to look up at him. "You really think I'd do that to you?" He asked looking upset.
"No Mike I don't want to but why did it take you so long to answer my question? Why wouldn't you tell me where you were?" I said wiping a tear from my eye as it quickly fell.
"I wasn't sleeping with Ivey. I was trying to figure out how to surprise you for your Greatest Hits album. We were going to throw you a party." Mike explained with a sigh. "You think just because your pregnant I'd have an affair?" He asked causing me to run my fingers through my hair.
"Mike I'm sorry okay?" I said looking at him seriously. "Be mad if you want but I can't do this today." I said before standing up taking my plate to the sink along with my drinking glass. I hurried up the stairs into the bathroom immediately beginning to get sick. I normally get sick a few times a day but if I'm upset its worse.
When I was done I stood up from the floor and brushed my teeth before unlocking the door to go back into the bedroom finding myself sitting on the bed. "Look Carrie. I would never cheat on you." Mike said standing up walking over to me.
"I know. Its not that I think you would but its the first thing that came to mind. Please I don't want to talk about it." I sighed pulling my hair back out of my face.
"Alright. Sorry." Mike said walking out of the room. A tear fell from my eye as I sat on the bed. Damn I don't know how I am going to do this? Mike and I fighting and having this baby? I just need a break. From life just a brief second. To breath, not to think about everything.
Tears quickly fell from my eyes as I lifted my shirt looking at my belly in the bathroom mirror. Is this what I want? A baby? Right now? I found myself sitting on the bathroom crying hysterically. It's so much harder to be pregnant when Mike and I are fighting.
"Carrie..." Mike said knocking on the bathroom door causing me to sigh. I tried my best to be quiet but I was crying so hard it was difficult. "Care honey... Open up." Mike said knocking on the door. I didn't say anything, I didn't want to. I don't want to fight with him anymore.
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