"Thank you so much Mike." I smiled linking arms with my husband as the two of us walked out of the restaurant.
"You don't have to thank me baby, I love spending time with you." Mike replied softly kissing my cheek causing me to blush. Oh how I love him. "Are you ready to leave tomorrow?" Mike questioned with a slight laugh knowing the answer to the question already.
"I'm ready to get home on our farm and be able to go on long walks with you and not be disturbed... I am ready to sleep in our own bed together." I laughed nodding my head. "What're you going to tell your coach?" I worriedly asked my husband.
"Baby as much as I wish it was, this isn't my decision." Mike answered as the two of us stopped at the truck him opening my door for me.
I didn't speak the whole way to the hotel. I wanted to but I didn't at the same time. I'm not sure what I will do if Mike has to come and live here, in Chicago. I can't move with him. They're talking about me making a new album and I have to be in Nashville. How will it affect our relationship. I don't really remember how things were when Mike and I were dating so it scares me thinking that him moving away could put our relationship at risk.
The two of us just sat in the truck silently after he parked the truck. "Care. I know you're upset." Mike broke the silence reaching over lacing his fingers with mine.
"Scared more than anything." I confessed biting my lip.
"What are you scared of, baby?" Mike questioned causing me to pull my hand away from his putting my head in my hands not wanting to see the tears that fell from my eyes.
"That if you leave things are going to get bad and you and I will get a divorce." I answered as more tears fell from my eyes.
"Care. Why do you think that? Why do you feel that way? I don't understand." Mike sighed seeming almost as if he was annoyed. I just sighed shaking my head as I opened the door getting out of the truck.
"Baby...-"
"Just leave me alone Mike, please." I pulled away from my husband once he tried stopping me. I quickly walked into the lobby of the hotel straight towards the elevator. It wasn't that I was angry with him at all but the thought of him leaving, either divorcing me or just moving here it scares me. I don't like being alone, I don't like being without him. I feel as if I am going to have a mental breakdown about this. It isn't fair. My heart is breaking.
"Carrie. I'm sorry if I upset you." Mike apologized entering our bedroom, me curled up on the bed.
"You didn't. You're fine." I answered trying for it not to seem like I was crying.
"Baby..."
"Stop. Just stop, okay? Stop calling me that, quit trying to hug me up because soon you're going to be gone. You're going to be living hours and hours away from me and you can't hug and kiss a phone screen." I snapped once he tried wrapping his arms around my waist.
"Carrie. I don't have a choice. The only choice I have is to leave. I would never ask you to quit singing." Mike looked at me seriously, obviously angry about what I'd said.
"I'm not asking you to quit hockey. I'm not asking you to do anything Mike." I replied as a tear fell from my eye.
"We don't even know what coach has decided, if anything. Carrie don't be so upset we don't even know if coach will trade me yet. Okay?" Mike said trying to pull me into a hug but I just stood there. "You'd think you'd be all over me, wanting to spend as much time with me since I could be leaving. Carrie do you not think I am upset at all? Or do you just not care?" Mike pulled away from me as more tears fell down my face.
"Mike..." I sighed before he walked out of the bedroom. "I do care. I really do. I'm sorry." I apologized following him into the living room. He sat on the couch causing me to almost instantly sit on his lap wrapping my arms round his neck resting my head on his shoulder. "I just don't want things to change. I know you don't either." I bit my lip harshly, not wanted to cry anymore.
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