Torn

10 - The truths and the dares

WARNING *Sensitive subject* I haven't included it very much detail but this is just a warning.

Ava's POV

We all sat in a circle about to play a game of truth or dare. A bottle of beer hung loosely from my fingertips as we waited for Mikey to fulfil his dare.

"Do I really have to do this?" he whined, looking pleadingly at me.

"Yes you do!" I laughed at him. I took a swig of my bottle and nearly spat it back out from laughing when I saw the look on Ashton's face. 'Sorry' I mouthed at him, pulling kissy faces. His face softened.

"Come on Mikey let's get it over with then." He smirked at me. Mikey slowly walked over to Ashton and hesitantly placed himself in front of him. He squeezed his eyes shut and he pouted his lips a bit, Ashton looked disgusted and slowly leant forward, their lips literally touched for a split second before Ashton jumped away.

"His lips ugh they were on fire ow!" He exclaimed taking a swig of his bottle, then angrily wiping his lips.

"Oooo sparks were flying eh Cal?" Luke giggled drunkenly while elbowing Calum in his side.

"Yeah Luke, your drunk." Calum stated.

"No shit Cal." Cal laughed to himself.

"OKAY OKAY NEXT ONE.... Ava darling I choose you as payback for your horrible dare.2

"Oh god I feel so scared." I teased, sticking my tongue out at him.

"Hmm I dare you to... kiss me."

"Woah Ash. That's a bit extreme you don't even know her." Calum exclaimed, proving he didn't know about my little thing going on with Ash.

"Yes I do!" Ash fought back defensively.

"How?! I've never seen you with her and hell you haven't even spoken about her, is she this mystery girl?" Cal practically shouted at Ashton.

"Cal it's just a dare shut the hell up!" I said, speaking up. They both turned to look at me, Cal biting his lip holding back his words.

In the next five seconds I had stood up, crossed over to the other side of the room and pressed my lips against Ashton's. Just as he started to respond I pulled away and went back to my seat. Calum shot a glare at me and I looked at the floor. I would not let him get to me, he was just a fling. Or so I thought.

1 hour later

We were still playing truth or dare and they just kept o getting stranger. Halsey had to do seven minutes in heaven with Rian from All Time Low and everybody was howling when he came out with an awkward boner and a blush on his face. Josh from Twenty One Pilots had to lick Alex Gaskarth's face. And now it was my turn again.

"Ava, truth or dare?" Calum asked me.

"Truth." I replied, not wanting another dare.

"You're so boring Av!" Ed's very English accent rang out from the other side of the room.

"I know she is isn't she Ed." Cal teased.

"Just get on with it Hood."

"Okay okay... hmm... I've got a good one. Who did you lose your virginity to?" My head snapped in his direction, my mouth formed in an 'o' shape. The room started spinning as I remembered.

//FLASHBACK\\

"Mom, Dad. I'm going out, see you later, love you both." I called, pulling my vans on. I picked my skateboard up from where it was resting neatly on the wall. I adjusted my beanie and placed my earbuds carefully in my ears. I slammed the door behind me and took off down the path. Once I reached the side block I put my skateboard down, placed my foot on it and pushed off. Feeling the wind in my hair, I felt the thrill of life. I know I know, I'm only 15 but I had got my first boyfriend and I had no troubles. I was being cast into a movie and I was so excited. My smile on my face was real.

I turned into Toni's neighbourhood, making my way to my second home. A man walked ahead of me, his hood turned low. I tried to skate past him but he blocked my way. My board veered to the side and I fell down hard.

"Do you need help?" the man asked me and I looked up, scowling. It was him. The man I hadn't seen in six years. He hadn't changed, only age etched his face and grey dotted his hair.

"Ava?" he asked me.

"Jason." I replied, trying to put as much venom into my voice as I could.

"Darling, you've grown so much."

"When did you get out?"

"A month ago. Honey, you've gotten so beautiful just like Rachel," I winced at the mention of my birth mother's name.

"Don't mention her to me." I spat.

"Oh sweetie, doesn't your own father get a hug after all these years?" He put his arms around me and as a resisted against him he firmly placed his hands on my lower region.

"Get your fucking hands off me you asshole." I gritted my teeth and he took my hand.

"Come with me." He dragged me into the alleyway behind Hal's diner.

"Get off of me!" I screamed, his hand being thrown over mouth in response.

"Shut up you fucking bitch. No one will come if you scream, no one will care. You are nobody apart from my little pawn in my game."

I stopped fighting. I didn't see the point anymore, he would control me either way.

I felt numb as he assaulted me, I felt nothing but pain and I'd never felt so lonely in all my life. When people passed me lying battered and bruised on the sidewalk, I felt alone. I was the ignored.

//FLASHBACK OVER\\

I found myself on my feet, running away from Calum. I found myself running through the front door and out on to the street. Rain poured down but I kept on running, I was soaked in minutes. I stopped after ten minutes, on a foreign looing street where friendly houses lined each side.

I sunk onto the floor and I cried and I cried. As I remembered my heart shattered. I'd spent so long burying it within me so I would forget. The truth is; I would never forget. My past is part of my and I have to live with that and I also have to live on. I will rise above it, I will embrace who I am and live for now.