Torn

45 - wait for me to come home

"So your dating Calum?" Ed asked for the fourth time.

"Yes Ed." I laughed, shaking my head. 

"But Ash?"

"Was a dick." I finished for him. 

"You have to go on tour with him for three months though?"

"Shit."

"Do you just wanna finish recording this song?" He changed the topic.

"Sure. I'm really liking this one."

I walk into the recording booth and put the headphones onto my head. I pick up the old acoustic guitar that I'd fallen in love with over the years.

"You ready?" Ed's voice said through the headphones. I nodded.

He put his thumbs up to signal he'd started recording.

I carefully picked the pattern I'd taught myself the past couple of hours. After I finished the intro i started to sing.

"Loving can hurt

Loving can hurt sometimes

But it's the only thing that I know

When it gets hard

You know it can get hard sometimes

It is the only thing that makes us feel alive

We keep this love in a photograph

We made these memories for
ourselves

Where our eyes are never closing

Hearts are never broken

Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me

Inside the pocket

Of your ripped jeans

Holdin' me closer

'Til our eyes meet

You won't ever be alone

Wait for me to come home

Loving can heal

Loving can mend your soul

And it's the only thing that I know (know)

I swear it will get easier

Remember that with every piece of ya

And it's the only thing we take with us when we die

We keep this love in this photograph

We made these memories for ourselves

Where our eyes are never closing

Our hearts were never broken

Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me

Inside the pocket

Of your ripped jeans

Holdin' me closer

'Til our eyes meet

You won't ever be alone

And if you hurt me

That's OK, baby, only words bleed

Inside these pages you just hold me

And I won't ever let you go

Wait for me to come home

Wait for me to come home

Wait for me to come home

Wait for me to come home"

I sang Ed's part, for the end of the song, which would be cut out and replaced by him later.

"Oh you can fit me

Inside the necklace you got when you were 16

Next to your heartbeat

Where I should be

Keep it deep within your soul

And if you hurt me

Well, that's OK, baby, only words bleed

Inside these pages you just hold me

And I won't ever let you go

When I'm away

I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost

Back on 6th street

Hearing you whisper through the phone,

"Wait for me to come home."

I sang the last note and held back the tears. This song was perfect but it reminded me of the almost relationship I had with Ashton. Yes the song was about him, I'm not denying that.

I know I'm in love with Calum, I'm so fucking in love with him but even though Ash hurt me, there were still some feelings there. And I hated it.

Ed came into the recording booth and immediately hugged me.

"You did good." He mumbled, pressing a kiss to my forehead.

Please imagine that 'Photograph' hasn't come out yet and it's Ava's song with a bit of Ed in. Not everything will be the same.