Kylo remembers Rey

Leaving

It had been 5 months since I had seen her last. Every day had been excruciating. I was stronger physically but weaker mentally.
I had completed the rest of Jedi training with Snoke and was overlooking the rebuilding of the first order. The plans were to make the first order bigger than the previous one that had been destroyed.
The ships were bigger and our systems were much more advanced.
As I was watching a bug fly through the air I drew out my lightsaber and turned it to ash. I was much more on edge and I couldn't stand bugs.
I also had befriended a stormtrooper.
The only reason I talked to him was to get information out of him.
He kept tabs on Rey for me.
She had been flying throughout the Galaxy with that disgusting wookie for quite some time.
But now he couldn't find where she had went. My guesses was that she was with my mother or went back to Luke.
I was going to find out.
Tonight was the night I was gonna leave the first order and find her myself.
It was midnight as I walked down the eerie hallway.
Everything was pitch black until Hux and about 20 stormtroopers bumped into me as I turned the corner.
Hux smiled at me.
"Going somewhere Ren or just cant sleep, he said."
None of your business Hux.
"I do think it is my business since you are walking down the hallway at midnight all alone in your full armor, he said."
"Also I came to tell you that Snoke wants to speak with you it must be serious because he didn't seem to happy".
I walked into the hologram room as Snoke was standing.
Which he never does.
AFTER ALL OF THIS TIME AND YOU TRY TO RUN AWAY FOR A STUPID GIRL, I HAVE TAUGHT YOU THE FORCE AND GUIDED YOU LONGER THAN ANYONE ELSE IN MY THOUSANDS OF YEARS LIVING. DID YOU THINK I WOULD NOT FIND OUT ABOUT THIS!?
REN I AM COMING FOR YOU AND WHEN I DO YOU WILL DIE.

Then the hologram faded.
I knew he would find out.
He can sense when something is wrong. But I could seriously have cared less since he had ruined my life.
I ran as fast as I could with the lightsaber out in my clutch.
Everything was on lockdown and every stormtrooper was sent to stop me.
As I ran to the nearest ship my foot got caught in the closing door. I struggled and yanked it out.
I climbed and tried to shut the ship doors but I didn't know how.
I never had piloted a ship before in my life.
I started pressing every button and it rose up and flew out of there.
The first order had shot huge lazer missals at me but I dodged every one of them. Lucky me.
I didn't know where I was going but I needed to get somewhere safe.
Over the monitor of the ship I could here the orders they were giving to find me. The bounty set on me dead was high but still alive was even higher.
Snoke would want me living so he could torture me himself.
I had a map showing every planet in the nearest system that was apart of the resistance.
I didn't have a good plan but I needed to find my mother.
If she could help maybe I had a chance at finding Rey.
I didn't even have any clothes to change into.
I was a freaking wreck.
I flew my ship into the planet Talari
a planet for spare parts and races.
I settled the ship into the dirt and walked out.
Every single person/creature looked at me wide eyed and walked faster then they were before.
I took off my helmet realizing maybe somebody would talk to me if I didn't look like I was about to kill them.
While kicking my shoes in the dirt I spotted a droid off in the distance.
It looked oddly familiar.
THE DROID THAT HAD THE MAP!
Oh dear god its going to think I wanna take it, I ran after it trying to see where it was going. It went to an x wing fighter jet and hopped up into its place in the front.
Hey wait, I was out of breath as I approached the jet. The droid started babbling like crazy and a man came out of the back. He was holding a gun and had it pointing in my direction.

"What do you want, he said."

He looked scared and I tried to look as normal as possible. Also if I was still a deranged lunatic I would have forced the gun and smacked him in the face with it.

"I'm not here to kill you, I said."
"I'm not here to take your droid either, and I know this might sound crazy but I have left the first order and I am looking for my mother Leia."

He seemed very confused.

"I know who you are, he said."
"Ur Kylo Ren"

Beeeeeeep!!!!

It was the droid and it was very fidgety.

"I work for your mother, he said."

"Oh what do you do, I said"
It felt weird asking a type of question like that.

"I'm an x wing fighter pilot, he said."
"I also was the one who destroyed the first orders base."

I swallowed hard and noticed the gun was still pointed right at my face.

"Listen I know ur not here to have a conversation with me so I better be on my way, he said."

"Please I really need to find my mother to help me, I said.
"Your about the only person that would have a chance of helping me, I don't even know where she is, I said."

He looked down and back up.
"Well everybody thinks your a lost cause and many people will not forgive you for what you have done, but I think your mother will be mad if she knew I left you hear without helping you, he said."
"They may not even let you into the resistance it will be up to your mother."

"I'm willing to take my chances, I said."

He then looked at his droid and they had a conversation for quite sometime he started laughing.
BB-8 that's a great idea he said still smiling.
I couldn't help but smirk a little because I had no idea what that droid was saying.
"Okay you can come with us but you will have to hand over your lightsaber, because how could I still trust someone after they killed Han Solo, he said."

I was so relieved...
But I felt remorse when I heard my father's name.
I no longer hated him anymore.
I think it was because he was gone and how much it hurt Rey.

Here I said as I handed it over.
Also what is your name?

Oh right my name is Poe, he said before climbing in the jet and helping me in...