Unexpected

Bonus Chapter

I stood with Jonathan, my hand wrapped tightly in his long fingers as he clung onto to me. He was trying not to cry and was breathing deeply, but every now and then his breath would hitch in his throat and a straggled choke would escape. It broke my heart every time I heard it, he was trying so hard to be strong but I knew how much he was breaking. We had spent the days following up to this awful one together; using each other as a life support. All we had, was each other.
"I kinda thought it would rain." Jonathan said in a weak voice. I turned my head towards him, giving him a questioning look.
"I thought that if something ever happened to Marco... It would rain. Like the world crying over him being gone." He sobbed, losing himself for a bit. His grip on my hand got tighter but I didn't mind. He was right, today was sunny and seemed like it should be a really good day. This was so far from a really good day, though. Today was Marco's funeral.

There were a lot of people in the church which made Jonathan cry harder. Marco was truly loved. My heart went out to the family. Marco was dead and no one knew were Hunter was. It was destroying them. Jonathan and I were hurting but for parents to lose their children, I can't imagine the pain they must be feeling.
"Ladies and gentlemen, today is a very sad day for us all. We have lost someone very dear to us and very dear to the world. Marco Smith was a loving son, a great friend and an extremely talented sportsman.
His life was cut short by an unfortunate accident, but we will not focus on that he is no longer here with us, but rather on the good memories we shared with him and how much we loved him." The pastor was saying. Jonathan was finally getting his breathing to even out a bit as he calmed himself down.
"Now a few words from his good friend, Jonathan." I felt him tense as the words 'good friend' left the pastors lips. Jonathan, Hunter and I were the only ones that knew about Marco's sexuality and that him and Jonathan were a lot more then just, 'good friends'.

I gave Jonathan's hand a reassuring squeeze, he looked at me and gave a sad smile before standing up and walking to the front of the room, standing behind the podium.
"Marco..." Jonathan had to take a deep breath, "Marco has always been my best friend. No matter what happened, arguments and all; he was my best friend. I've known him since we were kids. He always seemed to have a large number of people around him. I wasn't like that, I was the loser that sat alone. But one day, as I sat alone, all of a sudden I had company by my side. A little blonde boy with these big brown eyes so full of kindness and love." Jonathan's voice cracked and he looked down, no doubt trying to control his crying. Tears were flowing out my own eyes, it hurt. It really did.
"He, uh, he told me that we were going to be friends forever. He was right..." He chuckled lightly but there was no humor and no hint of happiness, "Only his forever ended a lot sooner than mine did." Jonathan was struggling a lot, his face showed the raw and pure pain of his loss.
"I'll never stop thinking about him though and all those times he's helped keep me up, making sure my head was held high. He's always been a helping hand. A rock to lean on. He was so full of love, he was one of the kindness people I know-" Tears streamed down Jonathan's face, rolling off his cheeks. His words had gotten soft and he stopped for a second to recollect his broken self before speaking again, this time a little louder, "I'm going to miss my best friend. But I know that he would want us all to be happy and live our lives the best way we can." Jonathan was full on crying now and my heart broke more with every word he said, every choked sob, every tear that slipped out of him.

Jonathan stepped away from the podium and I only noticed now, how much he was leaning on it. He came and sat down next to me again, instantly taking my hand in his and holding on tight.
"I love him so much." He sobbed, sadness radiating off his hunched body. That wasn't past tense. Jonathan loves Marco. He was always going to love Marco. When they said forever, they meant more than just a friendship. Though what Jonathan said about them being best friends, well I know what it's like to fall in love with your best friend. It hurts even more when you lose them cause it's like losing a part of you. Losing your best friend sometimes seems worse then dying.
"I know..." Was all I could say.