Burned Intentions

Haze of Temptation

I look at the meth, needle and the elastic band on the floor. My body moves forward and I stand infront of it and stand there and stare at it.

Skylar.. Aunt Claire knocks on my door.

She opens the door and stops in her tracks when she sees what's on the floor.

Skylar! I thought you stopped with this nonsense! She shouts and walks up to it.

She tries to pick it up and I stop her.

I-Its not me. I stutter.

I pull her to the bed and show her the note.

He came to school today and said he had a surprise for me. I didn't think he meant this. I sigh

So that's why you were angry today and got into a fight?

I shake my head. All she cares about is the damn fight, not the fact that William got into the house undetected.

She sighs.

We need to get rid of the drugs. She says holding the bridge of her nose.

I'll do it. I walk up to the things on the floor and pick them up. My hands can't stop shaking. I turn to her. What did you want?

She snaps out of her trance and turns to me.

I'm going to pick Jaydon up from school now. So you'll have the house to yourself.
She glances at the things in my hand. You sure you don't want me to get rid of those things for you.

It's fine, he's testing me and I won't let him win. I walk up to my trash can and throw it in.

Ok. I'll be back. She kisses my forehead. Take care of yourself.

She takes on glance back at me and walks out. I hear her walking down the stairs and close the door down stairs. I throw myself on the bed.

Why would he do this. After everything he has put me through. He knows how hard it is and he makes it ten times worse. I don't even know why I keep asking myself the same thing. William is just out to get me. He won't change. He'll keep testing me and I'm sick and tired of it.

My fingers start tingling. I know this feeling all too well. It's what happens each time I get drugs. I sit up on my bed and run my fingers through my hair. Maybe I should just do it. It's just one time then I'm done. Just one more time.
But the feeling after you come down from your high Skylar. My subconscious adds.
ARG! I grab my pillow and throw it against the wall and it falls to the floor. Why do you have to be such a pain in my ass!!! I shout at nothing in particular.

I stand up and walk to my trash can and open it. I stare at the drugs in it. My hands yearning to pick it up and just go back to the sensation of the drugs. The feeling of when I rip it off the elastic band and it surges through my veins. I sit on the ground with my knees. I take out the the needle and meth. I hold it in my hand and stare at it. Just one more time. I grab the elastic band and rush into my bathroom. I break it in half and tie it around my upper arm. I grab the needle and draw the right amount from the casing. I can do this. It's just one more time. Once more. I need it. There is too much going on it can help. It eases the pain. You'll forget about Jesse, your dad, school. Everything.

Just as I'm about to hit my arm so that my veins can pop out the door bell rings. I fall out of my trance and throw the things on the floor and run downstairs and open the door.

I open the door and it's Jesse. He's eyes bulge and I forgot that I'm in just my underwear.

I clear my throat.