Burned Intentions

Quietus

I woke up knowing the feeling of happiness. Of utter bliss. It's indescribable, it's like I understand the feeling of metamorphosis. How the caterpillar transforms into a butterfly. It's a transforming feeling literally.

I turn to hold him once again, but my hand hits against the bed. He's gone. I sit up too fast and a dizzy feeling consumes me. I fall back. ARG. Did I do something wrong? I look up to check the time and I see my name on a note.

Skylar
I didn't want to wake you up. You looked so peaceful, that I thought you needed to rest. Last night was a defining moment, one of the moments I'll never take back. You make me feel whole, you make me want to be better. You've shown me that pain is for a moment and that with you I never need to feel it. You're my light, the beauty in life. You've given it a new perspective, one I really like. No, love.
Your clothes are at the foot of your bed I didn't want you to have to walk around.

Did I mention I love you? I didn't! Oh my, the horror. Well Skylar Saint-James, I love you. Existing now only for you. My gravitational force keeping me grounded. Ok. I'm about to tell you. I can't begin to describe how I feel about you. Like just thinking about it gives me goose bumps. I'm at the point where hearing your name I have this stupid huge grin plastered on my face. Everytime you say something greatly adorable or romantic to me I feel like my heart is about to pop out of my chest. I'm sure I've memorised every feature on that beautiful face of yours. Thinking about you or even seeing a picture of you gives me so much courage and happiness that I can't help but go on. I've reached the point where I don't think, I know I love you and this is a big thing for me to say because I've never had a stable structure in my life. With you Skylar, everything makes sense and I'm proud to be completely and utterly devoted to you...

You're the keeper of my heart
-Jesse

I'm trying not to smile, but the feeling bubbles up inside me and I hold the paper to my chest. Remembering how he kissed and caressed me. Made love not only to my body, but to my soul. My face felt hot just thinking about what happened. Ok, no I need to get dressed before people come in. I grab my underwear and top and slip them on, don't actually feel like wearing pants. I wonder how he even wrote this. I'm not even allowed pen or paper so I had to find a different method of trying to write.

The rain starts hitting at my wind and the light from the lighting illuminates my room. The words on the wall bounce back at me. The letter I wrote to Jesse when I first came here. I completely forgot about it even.

There's a knock on my door. I pull the blankets over my naked legs.

Come in?

Jesse walks in and looks at me. He just stands and stares. He walks to me and kisses my forehead.

I have a surprise for you. Don't freak out or anything. I just thought you needed this to free your spirit.

I tilt my head a bit and raise my brow.

What is it? He knows I hate surprises. Glad to see that hasn't changed.

He stares at me and just smiles.

Jesse, you know I hate surprises. Just tell me already! I swat him impatiently.

Now! He shouts towards the door.

They walk in and my heart stops. It's like the room went cold and all the heat has been moved inside my body. They stand by the door and we just stare at each other. It's like I'm meeting them for the first time.