Burned Intentions

Chicanery

SKYLAR'S POV

I woke up to the stench of chemicals. My body screaming at me for all I had done to it. The withdrawal is one I never wanted to experience. Everything is a fogged haze of all the drugs I've taken.

All the memories flooded in all at once and I feel sick to my stomach.
I remember how he'd video call me, in ignorance I'd answer. I'd watch him torture Jaydon and laugh. The pain wouldn't be visible from all the drugs I had taken. The hurt in the fact that he would do this to his own child. A man who cared so little for his family. I remember the touch of my skin, it being as hard as a rock. I try to move my hands but I'm shackled to the bed.

No, no no no! Why are they doing this! My breathing starts to escalate and the woozy feeling returns. I need to calm myself down, breathe Skylar breathe. I close my eyes trying to calm myself and all the vivid pictures flash before my eyes. Jaydon being probed with different needles. He's eyes had so much pain and sorrow with in them that it was literally heart breaking. He'd cry but couldn't move. My heart breaks as I see William torture him. Jay hasn't seen this side of him and to have such a horror in your life it's just...

My chest closes in and I can't help but let the tears flow. Crying for the pain we've all been put through. It's despicable. We've been hurt so much, yet no one sees past the facade we put up. Funny how much we give people the power to be able to hurt us, break us down into a form of no return.

I open my eyes to see the reason for all my tears. For all the pain. The anger, depression, for all the retrogression. Smirking at me as if this is humorous.

What do you want this time William? I croak.

My throat hurts. Feels like a thousand needles trying to pull through everytime I talk. He walks over to me and picks up the glass of water and puts the straw near my mouth. I shake my head and he snickers.

I didn't poison the water Skylar. I think I've let you suffer enough. Especially considering that now because you're awake they can officially send you to a mental institution. He grins at me clapping his hands.

My mouth falls wide open. Mental house! Why am I getting sent to a mental house. My body shivers as I think about the Death chambers.
William reads my facial expression and puts his hand on my head.

You see my dear, you've been so careless with your life, you know with the cutting yourself and the drugs. How could you go back Skylar. You're breaking your mother's heart.

I feel the room going cold with the horror of what this man is saying. Stabbing me straight through my heart.

"Skylar promise me you'll never go back baby please. We can't let this happen to you again. It could kill you."

My mother's words run through my mind and I feel sick to my stomach. My stomach heaves and I want to throw up but nothing comes out and I'm just there making gagging noises.

William is just standing there watching me as if I fascinate him. It's not like he cares. He has never....

"You and your brother were nothing but casualties, experiments so that I could use you."

I feel my hands shaking and the pit of my stomach burning from all the heaving. How could they both care so little for people they made essentially. One is dead and one is trying to murder all of us. What a great big happy family isn't it.

How do you sleep at night! I whisper.

Peacefully knowing that I have you right where I want you. He winks at me.

I swallow back the bile that started building up in my mouth. How could he even consider saying that. Right where he wants me. What does that even mean?
I push all my thoughts to the back of my mind. I need to focus on things more important.

What have you done to Jaydon? I say trying to sound like I'm not breaking down each time I hear his name.

Alas that boy. That's business that does not concern you Skylar. He let out a sigh. Let me be off. Bye dear one.

He kisses my forehead and I cringe away from his touch. He looks at me and I see an emptiness in him. He's eyes look glassy. Like he's alive but not willing to live. He smiles at me and starts to stalk off.

By the way. Jesse is probably dead by now. So don't be expecting him to come home.

My mouth falls open and I stare at him bewildered. My mind can't comprehend what has this man just said to me. Tears start streaming down my face. Reopening the pain I try to hide so much.

He leaves the room. My entire body scrunches in but these restraints are keeping me from holding myself from breaking down any further. I feel like I'm falling apart. My heart beating faster at the thought of him being gone.

I want you dammit!

My mind plays back the memory and my heart sinks in further.

Ever since that day in the garden, the way you let yourself go, be free, be happy. I've never in my life seen something so utterly beautiful. It was then Skylar Saint-James, that I knew I'm falling inlove with you.

Another dagger to my heart. I close my eyes trying to push all the memories of him away but they come back full force. His smile, his dimple that I love so much. The way his mouth perfectly moulded into mine. It's all gone. The last time I was with him was when Jaydon was kidnapped and said I'd call him and I never did. Now he's gone. The one person I truly loved is gone. I try to pull my hands out of the restraints but they keep me in place.

Let me go! Just let me go! my voice cracks and the misery seeps in and I just cry.

Jesse!!! I scream past the tears. I feel my body breaking down. My insides turning inside out from the pain I feel inside. It's like someone is fighting inside me trying to get out. My heart rate increases and I feel like I'm dying. Please let it be death. I can't be without him. Let me be with him please. I open my eyes trying to see past the tears but they just keep coming out.

The nurse storm into the room trying to calm me down.

No let me go. Please just kill me. I say between sobs. Please... I whisper.

Calm down we're trying to help you.

I move against her touch. Please let me die. If this is what death feels like let me be in happiness of it. I'll be with him.

I feel my body relaxing and I give into it.

Jesse, I love you. I whisper, falling into a deep sleep.

His face comes into the darkness and his smile gives me light.

I love you too Skylie...

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Hey guys. I know I haven't posted in a while, but school is keeping me occupied. Final year isn't as easy as I thought. But those who patiently waited thank you. I love you guys more than anything! From now on I think I'll be posting on Saturdays only because that's usually when I have time.
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