Burned Intentions

The Battle of Existence

Ever struggled to exist. Floating around with no purpose, as though all meaning and life has been taken away. Like you just ask yourself, what is the point honestly?
Why should I carry on fighting? I've been fighting. Jaydon is hopefully safe, Jesse... Well Dmitry betrayed me. William keeps trying to kill me.

Maybe it's time I just give in to him. Let him win and finally kill me. It's his goal after all.
I'll see mom, I'll find her and be with her. Everything only went downhill after she left. She's literally all I need.

Skylar. Please be alive. Please don't leave! I shouldn't have left you with him. Please be alive.

His voice pulls me back to life. Pulling me out of my slumber. I hear him. I open my mouth and a series of coughing attacks me.

I roll over to my side and embrace myself. The coughing won't stop.

Skylar!

I hear him moving towards me. My hands start feeling moist and a clumpy taste forms in my mouth.

Jesse bucket!

He runs to the end of the room but it's too late. I heave and regurgitate on the floor. It stops and I sit up and it comes back up.
Grabbing the bucket from Jesse I let all the content out into the bucket. Jesse stood behind me and held my hair with one hand and patted my back with the other.

Jesse leave, I don't want you to see this.

I'm here, deal with it. He says.

We stay like this for a moment until the nausea subsides. I sit up properly bring my knees up to my chest and clutching at them.

Skylar? he takes away the bucket and puts it on the floor.

He tries to move my legs from my chest.

No don't, it hurts more when I don't sit like this. Well I think, I haven't actually tried it, but I don't want to either. I mutter.

Skylar look at me please. What hurts?

I open my eyes and see William in the corner giving me a sinister smile, I cringe away and he laughs. I slap my hands against my ears so I don't hear him.

No, no, no! Go away. Leave me away.

I rock back and forth. Why? Why won't you leave me alone?

I keep shaking my head. Anger rushes over me that he scares me so much.
My eyes flare open.

What the hell do you want from me!

William disappears and Jesse comes into view.

Who the hell are you talking to Skylie?

I look around and I don't see him anywhere. I'm still in my room, where William was not too long ago.

Jesse it's him. I rub my face to get him out of my mind. It's him.

My hands start shaking and I place them under my armpits so he doesn't see them.

He can't see me scared. I mutter. I won't give him the satisfaction.

I shake my head. It feels as if my hands are making my entire body shake. I move them out and look at them shaking.

I just need to do something with these. They're going to give me away.

I look around to find something I can use. I see the broken lamp pieces on the floor. I roll off the bed and stay down and look around to make sure William is not around and I quickly hurry to the lamp pieces. I pick up one of the broken pieces and place it against my wrist to start cutting, but Jesse comes up and grabs it from my hands.