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S I X T E E N

"If you're out there, if you're somewhere, if you're moving on, I've been waiting for you ever since you've been gone. I just want it back the way it was before and I just wanna see you back at my front door,"

- If This Was a Movie; Taylor Swift.

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I don't know what to do because I can feel that world around me is trembling. I looked at Luke and his eyes were pale blue. I took a deep breath and turned to Serena.

"How long?" I asked, trying to sound normal.

"Including today, it has been two weeks," she said.

Two weeks. That means it is the day after the dance night. I'm glad that I was sitting on the stool because my knees can't support my body anymore. I grabbed at the helm of the bar.

"He didn't tell me anything," I said, looking at Luke.

"Elle...I-"

"I feel happy for you," I said and walked out from the bar.

I'm so stupid. How stupid I can be? I walked out from the bar and I heard footsteps behind me.

"Wait up, Elle...where are you going?" Luke asked, followed me from behind.

"Back home! This is too fucking crazy for me okay," I said, walking towards my car. Fuck, why the hell I parked my car beyond far?

"Elle, look! It's fine...Serena and I just need to air up some stuffs," he said. I stopped my track, facing him.

"Good! I'm glad that you're fine because I'm fucking not. We are here to celebrate my happy time and we are just good less than ten minutes ago and for eleven years, you never hide anything from me and now, I heard from someone's mouth that you hooked up with her and it was from Serena Williams' and not from you!"

"Come on, Elle. Nothing happened. We are just having some fun, that's all," he said.

"That's what you got me here the? For some fun and what? Another lie?" I snapped.

"I wanted to see you for God's sake you are my best friend. We haven't talked and seen each other fucking many days!"

"Oh yeah? And maybe you just needed someone from your old life to point out the truth," I said.

Do not cry do not cry do not cry...

"What truth?" he asked.

"You're in mess Luke! This whole fucking situation is a fucking giant bloody mess!" I said.

"Ha ha, me? I'm in mess?" he asked, laughing without humor.

"And you're in denial."

"You're psycho!" he snapped.

"Fuck you, Lucas!" I yelled. His eyes changed color-from light blue to dark blue. He took a deep breath.

"Elle, look. I was worried about you that you might found this difficult with Serena and I together," he said.