Torn {Bucky Barnes FanFic}

Chapter 17

I led him away from the living room and to a different hallway. I opened one of the doors, saw it was an empty closet, and stepped in. It was fairly dark inside, the only light coming from the small window that cast a beam of moonlight into the closet. Without comment, he followed me and shut the door.

"Okay, let's talk," he said quietly.

I took a deep breath and folded my arms. "I don't care what you did when you were with Hydra, Bucky. That wasn't you. That wasn't the Bucky I know."

"I still did it, Cara," he said harshly.

"But I don't care! As far as I'm concerned it wasn't you."

"Why are you doing this?" He snapped. "You could be with any man in the entire world. Yet here you are, chasing after a piece of shit that's killed God knows how many people."

"Don't say that," I said thickly. "Please, don't say that."

"I'm not good enough for you, alright? You should stop wasting your time with me and go find someone else who can actually give you something."

I stepped forward and put my hands on his arm. "I don't want anyone else. I only want you, Bucky." I could feel myself getting worked up, and I took a shaky breath.

"Someone like Steve," he continued and turned so he wasn't facing me. "Or Sam."

"I don't want to be wth Steve or Sam," I cried. "I don't love them the way I love you!"

Bucky stopped and looked back slightly. "You don't mean that."

"Yes, I do!" I insisted. "You don't get to decide whether or not I love you, I do."

I paused and walked closer to him. He looked down at me, his familiar blue eyes making me want to burst into tears over the mere fact that I was staring into them.

"I love you, Bucky," I breathed. "I don't know what kind of a life I'm going to have. All I know is that I want you in it."

I blinked a few times, and realized that my cheeks were wet. He reached up slowly and put his hands on my face, using his thumbs to wipe my tears away.

"It won't be easy," he murmured.

"I don't care."

"I'm a mess."

"Good, so am I. We can be one big mess together."

He smiled slightly at me. "I love you,
Cara Stark."

"Thank god," I whispered.

I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his softly as his hands slid down to my hips. He took control of the kiss and pulled me closer so our chests were pressed against each other. It slowly grew more heated as we moved so that I was against the wall across from the door. I jumped up slightly and wrapped my legs around his waist and leaned my head backwards. His mouth left a trail of wet kisses down my jaw, until he paused right under my ear and sucked lightly on the sensitive skin. I moaned his name quietly, and felt him grin against my neck.

"Come, in here."

The door opened suddenly, and Sam stood in the doorway with a leggy redhead. Bucky dropped me gently as their jaws dropped.

"Oh well that's just typical!" Sam cried.

I cleared my throat and straightened my dress. "We were just-"