Letters To Gavin.

Chapter 11

(Gavin's p.o.v)

What did I say? What did I do? Is he okay?

These are the thoughts that have been running through my mind for days now.

 I can't lose him, he's everything to me. He's my lovely little boy. I'd much rather hear him yelling at me than to not hear him at all.

What is something I wrote in the letter? Christ, I probably said something and now I've gone and fucked it all up.

I always seem to fuck everything up.

My vision got blurry and I could feel a tear or two trickle down my face. I heard footsteps and quickly wiped them away. The door opened and I heard Dan's voice.

"Hey Gav-" I turned around facing him before he could finish his question, revealing my messy hair and puffy eyes.

"What's wrong?" He asked, sounding concerned. 

" I havent heard a single thing from him."

 "Nothing?" He asked, astounded.

"All I've seen is this." I replied, wiping my eyes.

I turned back to my computer to show Dan the recent AHWU. I skipped to the part where Michael said "Gavin, please come home."

It's weird, because right when Dan saw that bit for a split second he had the look of upmost anger in his face and then it quckly disapeared.

" I don't know what to tell you Gav." He said, sounding down. 

I put my head in my hands and ran my fingers through my hair. 

I can't lose him. Not my Michael. 

Not the person I love more than anyone.

"Look Gav, I know things seem a bit rubbish right now, but just know that no matter what happens I'll always be there." He cooed, rubbing my back.

I said nothing more as I rested my head on Dan's shoulder.

(Dan's p.o.v.)

To be honest, it's kind of scary how well this is working. He hasn't figured it out yet.

Don't get me wrong I feel bad for doing it, but I've waited so long for a moment like this, and I'm going to take my chance.

Look how sad he's made Gavin, I would never do that to him, even though I caused it.

(Gavin's p.o.v.)

After a few minutes I got up to go take a shower ( Haven't really bathed in a few days.) and looked back to smile at Dan.

"Thanks Dan, for everything."

"No problem mate." He said with a smile.

I wanted a distraction from current events as I showered, but 90% of the time I was comsumed in thoughts of Michael. So naturally I was bummed out again.

When I came out my phone buzzed signaling I got a text.

It was from Barbara.

Hey you might want to stop ignoring Michael, I know that letter might have said things that might be too soon for you, but don't ignore him. If you haven't figured it out yet Gav, you're everything to Michael. It would destroy him if you were to never talk to him again.

I stared at my phone in disbelief.

I'm everything to Michael? 

I don't get it, I havent gotten a letter or heard anything from Michael in forever. Why didn't he tell me? 

I never even got a letter in the first place.

I was about to text him when Dan popped in.

"How about we go get some bevs? It'll help you get your mind off things."

"Sure." I replied, sliding my phone in my pocket and grinning.

He grinned back just as big and we headed out. As we drove, Dan grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I only smiled.

Maybe a few drinks would help ease my nerves.

( Dan's p.o.v.)

This is going to be a fun night.