I'm Sorry; S.M

Chapter 23

        Chapter 23
Listen to No Role Models by J. Cole (live)

•Bella•

I sat up walking to the door. I opened it to Brent holding Chinese food. I weakly smiled, helping him with the food. "I got you shrimp fried rice," he said. "Thanks," I said. Just then, we started eating. We talked here and there. Mostly enjoying the food.
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I plopped on the coach, next to Matt and Brent. "Bel, um I need to talk to you," Matt whispered in my ear, making sure none of the boys heard him. I nod, following him out of the room. We walked down the hall, stopping at the corner. "Yes," I said softly, him getting a hold of my warm hands. "Isabella," he started off. Oh no.

"I didn't know how to tell you this. I got invited to go to digitour(just for the sake of the story). Digitour is just like Magcon but it's like more world wide. They invited me and Brent. I know you might hate me. I just accepted because I thought it was a bran new beginning, you know," he said. I looked down, blinking back the tears.

"Oh my god, Matt. That's great," I manage to say. I gave him a hug.

"When do you leave," I asked, letting go of his hands. I awkwardly put them in my sleeves. "In 2 days," he said. "Oh," I choked out. He sighed. "Do you hate me," he asked softly. "No... I love you Matt. You mean the world to me," I said. I hugged him tight. "I understand. You did what you wanted to do, because it's your life. Don't let me get in the way because you have a future in front of you and I don't want you to lose it because of me," I said. I kissed him softly. He soon pulled away, holding my face.

I sobbed softly, "I'm sorry Bel." He cried softly, as I rubbed his back, crying also. "Just know I'm here supporting you, babe," I said, kissing his head. "You think we should end things," I asked after a silence. Matt frowned, looking guilty. "I think it's for the best, I mean if you want to," he said. "Okay," I said hugging tight. He let go and I knew it was time for me to leave.

I started to walked but Matt pulled my arm. "Can I get a good-bye kiss?" I nod, leaning in. Our lips touched. It was soft and sweet kiss. Like no other. I pulled away and he hugged me. "Tell the boys I'm going sleep for me," he said. I nod, walking down the hall into Brent's room. I took a deep breathe, slowing opening the door. Everyone look at me, frowning, seeing tear stains on my cheeks.

"Matt was tired so he decided to sleep," I said, walking toward the coach. I laid down, putting my legs on Brent's lap. Slowly, I started to zoom off. Soon, I was fast asleep.
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"Bel, bab-w-wake up," I hear Matt's voice say. He almost called me babe. I slowly opened my eyes to see Matt with a plate of breakfast. "Just got you this because I felt bad for making you cry," he said, sitting beside me on the bed. "Awe you didn't have to Matt," he said hugging him. "But I wanted to," Matt said. "Thank you," I said, smiling sheepishly. I started eating, Matt asking if I felt any better from that headache.

Matt asked a question that caught me off guard. "Have you ever thought about loving someone else," he asked, looking guilty. I frowned, "No, why?" He looked down, "Your gonna hate me forever...... I-I cheated on you bel... I'm s-so sorry," he said started to sob.

I moved the plate and just was in shock. I realize that I didn't tell him about Shawn kissing me. I felt guilty too. "Matt there's something I need to tell you," I said. He calmed down and looked at me. I sighed, "When the boys went to eat at taco bel and I got me and cam some enchiladas, cam suggested I'd be friends with Shawn again. We argued until it came to me texting Shawn to meet me at a bakery. I told him I didn't like the awkwardness, and I wanted that to end and he said I don't understand.. He still loves me and I told him I love Matt, I just want to be friends. Shawn came onto me and kissed me. I pushed him off because I thought of you and I felt very bad not telling you this," I said putting my head in my hands.

I sighed. "Bel I think you should go back with Shawn. He loves you and I know you love him," Matt said, not believing the words he spoke. "It's for the best," Matt said holding my hands.

"But Matt I love y-"

"Bel. I know. I love you so much that it hurts when I can't even hold you. But I know deep inside that at least you have feelings for Shawn. Just go and talk to him tomorrow. I want you to go on with your life, without me holding you back," Matt said. I sobbed. "I'm leaving today in the afternoon. They changed the flight time," Matt said.

I couldn't help but to just kiss him. He admittedly kissed back. I slowly made my way to his hair pulling softly. Suddenly there was a knock at the door. We pulled away, getting up. I went to go answer the door, opening it Shawn.

"Bel,Ican'tresistbeingwithoutyouI loveyou," Shawn said kissing me really hard. I pushed him off, Matt standing there in shock. Matt pushed Shawn off. "Leave," Matt commanded. Shawn look at me one last time, slowly walking off. "I'm going to let you have space, Isabella. I'll be back when I'm leaving," Matt said leaving, shutting the door behind him.

I flopped on the bed, feeling like my world was crashing down. I opened my Mac Book, going on to Netflix. I clicked a movie, making my way towards the kitchen. I put pop corn in the microwave, letting it pop. When it was done I went back to the bed getting comfortable. I opened the pop corn and started to watch the movie while eating it.

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