The first of the girls to come is Emily, I ask them all to come at different times so I can say goodbye to each of them properly. I feel this would be better for myself than them as I have time to process this all. I feel deep down it helps me in some way. She walks through the door, smiling weakly to Ezra and just takes the seat next to me. Her eyes wander over my pale body, I have changed quite a lot since anybody last saw me and so it must be a lot to take in. There is nothing said until she wraps her arms around me, she has already lost somebody close to her this must be quite a lot for her to deal with. She weeps and holds on to me, I just wrap my arms around her.
"You can't go through with this Aria."
Ezra goes to step in but I shake my head, I want to do this by myself.
"I won't be in pain Emily, it will be very...peaceful. Much more than if I stay around."
Somehow just by hearing the words come out of my mouth she begins to understand and I am thankful for that. I wipe her eyes and we laugh, properly. This is the first time I have laughed in weeks, months even and at what? At how this is the last time we shall ever be together? Soon the cheer I feel overwhelming begins to vanish yet I try to keep my brave face. Painless. That's what I want, that's what everybody wants. I don't want to lose myself, I don't want to change in to someone I am not. Emily talks about how she wants to come back again tomorrow, how then she'll be more adjusted to it but I disagree. I insist that this is the end and that's not me trying to cause heartache but I don't want more goodbyes. I don't want to constantly put the people I love through pain when it could all end here for them. They will have time to grieve in their own homes and they will have each other, I do not want them to stay around for my last few seconds because however much I love them I don't want crying or pain. I want love and peace. We talk for a while, about memories and stupid things and soon enough Ezra taps me telling me how my next visitor will be here soon enough and Emily understands. She hugs me once more and presses a kiss to my head. Before she leaves, she walks to Ezra and whispers something to him before hugging him also.
"Goodbye Emily."
"Goodbye Aria."
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Till The End Of My Days
Fanfiction"I'm dying but the only thing I can think about is you." Aria Montgomery is given only a certain amount of days to live yet she cannot face the truth of it all.
