Till The End Of My Days

Doomsday

I wake up and this time I feel Ezra lying next to me, he is awake yes but for him to be by my side makes me feel so much better than I could have ever imagined. The apartment is quite, it feels much quieter than usual for some odd reason. Maybe it's because we both know what's to come and have no idea what to say.

I don't bother eating dinner, I am not hungry anyway. Ezra is pacing around making himself stupid little tasks to do trying to make himself some more time but the days hours are going on quickly and I feel I cannot wait anymore. I cannot put this off any longer.
"Are we going to talk about it then?" Ezra finally says, his bending over the table, his hands pushing him up. He's weak I know he is yet I feel right now he is the weaker one.
"About what?"
"The fact that you are going to die tonight."
"There's is nothing to discuss Ezra. Please. There is nothing we need to talk about on the matter."

The day goes on and me and Ezra discuss our fondest memories of each other which I find very soothing. He holds me close to him maybe because he is scared of letting go. Nothing feels uncomfortable anymore, there is no awkward tension nor crying on each others shoulders and I want it to end this way. I want this to be the end, is being happy. Us being in love.
I sit up and push back my hair, I ask if we can move to lie on the bed and Ezra agrees in the back of his mind he knows what is to come.
"Can you get me the pills please Ezra?" I ask no emotion in the words yet he turns away from me running a hand over his face. The face that is now paler than mine and that is a worrying thing in itself.
"Now? But can't we just wait-"
"What is the point in waiting? We'll wait and wait and then wait some more and never end up getting anything done. This is the right time Ezra, here and now."

Soon enough Ezra places the pills down on the small bedside table and takes a seat beside me.
"I'm glad I finally got my happy ending." I say my hand slipping over his.
"How so?"
"Because I got to spend the whole of my life with you. I am fortune for that, for our forever we made ourselves."