Till The End Of My Days

Thursday

I feel better in the morning, it is well timed and I am grateful for this circumstance however I do not use this as an excuse to get out of tomorrow. I steady myself as usual trying to take the day with the best possible care I can.
"What do you want to do today?" Ezra is already dressed and begins to help me get out of bed, he's already laid out clothes and breakfast is on the table. I can't bare to think abut how long he has been awake. I shake my head as I get dressed, where do I want my final visit to be to? I could go anywhere if I wanted yet I feel a longing for home. Time is going on and I walk over to the window looking out over the people of Rosewood. Watching their lives unravel makes me forget the problems I have in mine and for once everything seems normal. I would like that feeling back.
"I want to go out."
Ezra walks behind me, placing his hand on my shoulder and I turn to face him.
"Where do you want to go?" I cannot manage an answer because just looking at him makes me feel as if I am home. He is my home, whenever I am with him the safety I feel is unreal and I just long to lie in his arms.
"Rosewood. Just into town. Nowhere fancy, I want to say goodbye. I have to say goodbye to everything I have ever loved there's just four things narrowed down. Yesterday I said goodbye to my friends and family. The life I have grew up with. Today I want to say goodbye to the town I have always loved, no matter what happened I was always brought back to Rosewood."
Ezra nods and soon enough we are heading into Rosewood.

We sit on a park bench, my head resting on Ezra's shoulder.
"Aria?"
"Mhm?"
Ezra pauses for a slight moment, he does this whenever he doesn't know what to say.
"What's the third thing? What tomorrow is for?"
I look at him and I furrow my brows slightly as my fingers lie on his shoulder. "Well isn't it obvious?"
And of course it is but I believe he asks just for clarification.

"You deserved so much more, I don't know how I will carry on without you Aria."
"You will, promise me you will. The thought of you being hurt for a long time will crush me."
"I promise Aria. It will be hard but I promise."
Whenever we made promises in the past we made them with hope of a positive ending, our happy ending. That I know now we will never have.