A Pinch of Kerry

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I was laying on my couch, tired. I can't believe I walked from the hospital. My feet hurt so bad. After all this, my car was parked outside my house.

"Geez. I feel like crap."

I decided to take a shower. Maybe a shower will give me energy. I get into the shower and the steam just releases all the tension in my body. I scrubbed my body with body wash and didn't have a worry in the world. I started to day dream. I start to see the hospital again. This time Joey is hurt. He has cuts all over him. His lips are covered in blood. His mind is not right and he's shaking a lot so people have to pin him to the table. His breathing starts to get shorter and shorter. They try to intubate, but his throat is closing. All of sudden he stops moving. All the doctors look at the monitor as he starts to flatline. The doctors try to revive him, but its no luck. He's gone. Beeeeeep.

I took in a large breath.

"What did I just dream?"

I have clearly lost my mind. Or.....do I need to see him? I have so many things running around in my head I can't think clearly. I get out the shower and put on boy shorts and a big tshirt. I sit on my couch and ponder what I just dreamed about. I grab my phone and its messages from him, Thank God. I didn't wanna hear from him, but I didn't wanna hear that he's dead.

The messages read:

"Are you ignoring me?"

"I miss you, a lot."

"We should talk."

I'm glad he's not dead, but I'm definitely not interested. I'll talk to him just to tell him I can't do this. Suddenly, its a knock at the door. Great. I get up to answer it. I open the door and Joey is standing there.

He bites his lip, and pulls me in for a kiss. I push him off me. He ignores it and walks in my house.

"Listen....." I started.

Before I could say anything else he pinned me to the couch and started pulling on my tshirt. He rubbed my inner thighs and slid his tongue down my neck. Rubbing his manhood against my boy shorts. Maybe I could break up with him.....after? No. No, you can't do this. I pulled him off me.

"What? Whats wrong?" He said oh so confused.

"We're breaking up," I blurted before I could recant.

"Why? I haven't even-.."

I cut him off. "No."

"Well, can you tell me what this is about?" He said.

If I didn't know any better I would say he looked heartbroken.

"Oh don't give me that. I know you only want to have sex with me and leave me. I was almost okay with that, but you tried to play me."

"I have no idea what you're talking about."

He gave this BS little puppy dog face. He should have just wrote "I'm sawry" on his forehead, but no, I don't have time.

"Well, thats nice. You can go now."

I pushed him right out the door. I sighed. I went from too close to dying to too close to being a hoe. To get my mind off everything I got my phone and started to call my friends. First, I called J. The phone rung twice.

"Yes?" She answered.

"How are you?"

"Oh my God. Kerry! I'm sooooo sorry. We went through.....y'know and I left. You went to the hospital and I didn't even visit. I'm sorry. I've been.....caught up." She said a little distracted.