Mornings at Duke's (GirlxGirl)

You and I

You have been waiting for the longest time, you thought I forgot. It's hard to forget, I say. When there such an empty space with your absence.

Song: Come Home/ One Republic

Emily's POV:

"...will you marry me Emily?" He opened a little red box that had a huge diamond ring in it. I gasped at it, actually astonished by it's size. It looked way to big and I found myself wondering how the hell did he bought it. Then I looked in front of me and saw him smiling at me widely with joy in his eyes, waiting for his 'soon to be wife to accept an eternity with him.

I tried to think of a possible future with him. A big white house, a great car outside the door, a loyal dog running around enthusiastically. Us, waking up with big white smiles on our face to a refreshing coffee. Dan reading the newspaper as I prepare the breakfast.

And maybe, after a few years, there would be another member to our family.

Thinking about this future warmed my heart. Who wouldn't want that? An absolute future with the man of every women's dream. Nobody would even dare to let that go.

Then I looked back down at the ring and smiled. Because in that moment, I knew what I wanted.

I felt the tears stream down as I smiled. I wasn't crying because I was upset or stressed, the tears were there because after all this stressful months, I felt relieved, I felt happy. I can't even describe the amount of happiness I felt at that moment. I felt carefree, relaxed... The weight on my shoulder was finally gone in that moment. Because,

I finally realized what was more important than all. My happiness.

I realized it was my life, my opinion, my choices. And I wasn't going to ruin that just for what I should and what everybody would. No, fuck that.

Even though I was crying already, I wanted to cry more. Finally, I felt more in control of my life. So I smiled, big.

Then I saw Dan smiling back at me but his eyes were still nervous. I felt bad for both making him wait and breaking her heart but I didn't care about it much.

"I can't." I said, still smiling but this time bitterly. In that instant, Dan's smile fell from his face. His eyes teared up as he frowned a little.

"W-What? Why?"

I put my hand on his hand and sighed. Slowly soothing his skin I tried to ease the tension that was as thick as a wall. This conversation was due to long ago and it had to be done.

"I can't do that when in reality I don't feel the same way." A look of pain hot him and it hit bad.

"You don't love me?" I quickly frowned and my fingers latched themselves to his.

"No, I do." Dan sighed and took a deep breath.

"Than what's the problem Em. We used to tell each other everything, why are we drifting so fast?" I felt bad when he said like that. I would never want to cut Dan out of my life completely, he was way too valuable for that.

"I love you Dan. But I am not in love with you anymore." He tried to hide but I saw him taking another painful hit.

"Are you sure? Maybe we are going through a bad time. Couples always has one those at some point. We can go to a-"

"Dan." I smiled faintly at him. He looked at me and sighed again.

"You are sure." He stated.