Sorry I'm so hard to deal with sometimes. It's just that I have a war inside my heart and I can't decide which side to pick.
Emily's POV
"You need to get up love." Dan's soft voice called behind me as he gently touched my shoulder.
"Do I really?" I found myself replying back.
It's been 4 days and 8 hours since the festival, since meeting Cameron and his new lover and since... since breaking a heart that was already too fragile itself. After my multiple breakdowns and the tears I shed, Taylor decided it was best for me to speak with her later, once I decide what I want. She said that it would do no good if I speak with her now, still in confliction. So I followed that.
However, until I decide what I want and decide it for once and always, I felt empty. It was as if my heart was slowly breaking because it couldn't handle two people inside. I felt heartbroken.
"Is everything okay, did I... did I do something Emily?" He spoke, carefully this time. Upon hearing that I frowned and something inside shuttered. I quickly got up and turned towards Dan.
"No, no you did nothing wrong, please don't think like that." I said as my hands cupped his firm face. How bad t could get from this point anyway?
"Then what's wrong? Why are you like... this?" He asked innocently and all I could do was let out a heavy sigh. Wish I could tell Danny, I really wish I could.
"I... I've been dealing with something lately. It's exhausting." I partly said the truth. I was exhausted. I never thought my mind and heart could tire me more than a physical activity. I though everything they said about heartbreaks were just things cry babies made up. It wasn't.
"You know I'm always here right, whenever." Dan said as he involved my tiny body with a bear hug and I found myself smiling on his shoulder. Whenever he hugged me, I felt safe. With him everything was so easy, so familiar and so home-like. Maybe this is where I am suppose to be in 10 years time, I thought and hugged back.
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"Oh my god!" Taylor gasped as she saw me walking inside tot the Duke's. It's been a long week since the last time I visited here. I remembered how much we laughed and joked about Melanie peeing to herself. Thinking about it only brought a tiny smile on my face.
I missed her.
"What?" I smiled and made my way to Nicole and Taylor, who by the way both were watching me surprised.
Taylor shook her head slowly as she smiled. "I just never saw a walking dead before." Nicole giggled as she gave me a greeting hug while I rolled my eyes.
"HA HA, miss you to Tay Tay." Taylor smiled and made her way to me as she opened her arms wide.
"I just missed my best friend Em, don't be to harsh." I then again was about to roll my eyes to show her she was annoying as hell but found myself returning back the hug with a smile. No matter what she was my one and only Tay Tay and it was always good to see her.
"I missed you too." We sat down.
"How are you?" Nicole blurted out. Her girlfriend elbowed her with a frown and she groaned in pain. Nicole then mouthed 'What?' and Taylor tried to give hints with her eyebrows. I wanted sigh but held myself. I had became the topic you wouldn't want to speak out loud because it could hurt some feelings. Oh how I despised the position I was in.
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Mornings at Duke's (GirlxGirl)
Random•2• She was now standing up, her face in visiable horror. She slowly touched her lips and frowned a little. I got up but Em took a few steps back like I was a fatal disease. I don't want to lie, it hurt, so much. But then I took a few steps more as...
