The life we always wanted (2)

Chapter Thirty Six: Not wanting to let go

Emma's POV

"Emma, love im sorry. But we cant do nothing. We have to get Henry and Liam out of this rain. You too or you will catch a cold." Killian shouts holding Freya in his arms. "But i can save her Killian i have a way! We can all be together again and forget this all happened." I tried to tell him. The rain bouncing over the ground made a terribly loud noise which made it hard for us all to talk. "Emma please! Just transport us home and we will talk about it there." Killian shouted back. I nodded my head and flicked my wrist which transported us home.

Killian brought Freya up to her room and left the undertakers to clean her up and dress her in her royal attire. I however still stood outside in the rain. Staring at the rain,sky,clouds. Basically anything to distract myself.

"Emma." I turn to see Killian walking out with an umbrella. "Why are you out here." He continued hugging me from behind whilst holding the umbrella over us both. "She's really gone isnt she." I asked him. He could tell i was hearbroken. He felt so bad but he had to tell me the truth. "Im afraid so love. She has put a legacy on this realm and everyone will remember her for her sacrifice and beauty on the inside and out." He replies. I turned to face him and hugged him placing my head in the crook of his neck. He held my hand and we walked back into the castle which was dull and lifeless since we had returned. Killian left to go to Liam's room to comfort him and Henry leaving me standing at the bottom of the steps twiddling my thumbs. So it took everything i had in me to decide to walk up the stairs and to Freya's bedroom door. But i couldnt go in. Not now. Im terrified to look at her and let it sink in that she is actually gone. So i turned around and walked up to me and Killians room. I locked the door behind me and threw myself onto the bed.

I stared up at the ceiling holding the dagger in my hands. I looked down at it and sighed. All of this happened because i took the plunge all those years ago to become the dark one. To save everyone. But since we came back nothing has really happened. No villains. No fights. We literally lived in peace until the whole "curse" situation came up. I missed Storybrooke a little thinking about it all. But i missed Freya more.

I couldn't comprehend why Freya sacrificed herself for me. It just didn't seem like a thing a daughter would do for her mother. It would usually be the other way round. A mother saving her daughter. And i have many many times before. When she got on her horse for the first time and it ran off with her on it and i had to ride off to find her. When she was swinging on our balcony and hanging over the edge and then slipped leaving her hanging off it. I saved her. I was the only one in the room at the time...

~~ flashback, 7 years ago ~~
Still Emma's POV

"Okay Freya. You ready?" I asked her as we stood outside the stable doors. "I think so. But i must learn. Princesses have to ride horses. It's essential." Freya tells me. "Well that's true. But if your not ready to do it...." I began. "Lets go mom!" Freya cut in. I nodded and opened the stable doors revealing all of the horses our castle had to offer. A smile spread across Freya's face and she immediately ran up to the white horse and tried to open the gate.

"Woah woah calm down Freya the horse isn't going anywhere." I laughed at how determined she was. "I want to call her Piper." She immediately decided. " i love that name! Piper looks good to go if you want to go on her?" I explained. She jumps up and down as i lead Piper outisde so Freya could ride her.

"Okay I'll help you on now then I'll bring you to our track we have laid out in the field okay?" I explain to her. She nods and i help her up by lifting her under her arms. Immediately after i set her on Piper, Piper got agitated and started to run off with Freya on her back. Freya had no experience riding a horse so thats what worried me the most.

"Freya!!!" I shouted as i could hear her scream as Piper ran off towards the woods. I ran back into the Stables and jumped onto my horse, Scarlet and raced after Freya and Piper. As I entered the woods i begin to hear Freya's screaming fade. Which ment she was getting further away.

I had no choice but to use my magic to get closer. Once i had uses my magic i was a few gallops away from Freya's horse. I sped up and ran beside Piper, slowing her down. Piper came to a hault and Freya clung onto her for dear life. I jumped off my horse and took Freya off hers and she wrapped her legs and arms around me tightly.

"Mommy i was so scared." She says shaking. "Shh shh it's okay Freya im here." I say as she cried into my shoulder. I tied Piper to Scarlet and then jumped onto Scarlet with Freya still wrapped around me. I held into her tightly glad she wasnt injured or harmed in any way.

~~ End of flashback ~~

My thoughts are interrupted when the door knocks and Killian walks in. "Emma love. " he begins. "I think we should go up and see Freya. " he continues holding out his hand for me to grab. I reach for it and he pulls me up into a hug. He wipes my tears and we begin to walk down the staircase to Freya's room.

"You sure you're ready to see her?" Killian asks me. I nod and he turns the door handle and pushes it open.

Freya is laying in her bed in her best dress. Her beautiful blonde hair is tucked into a neat updo with a few strands over her face. I walked up slowly arm in arm with Killian to her bed and unlinked my arm and sat beside Freya's body.

Authors POV

Emma couldn't stand the fact that she would never be able to have a conversation or a kiss from her daughter ever again. It was too much for her to take in.

Killian however was trying to hold it all together. He didn't want to lose it infront of Emma, he needed to stay strong infront of her. He was so focused on keeping it together, tears began to pour out of his eyes.

Emma stared at Freya and fixed the loose strands of hair on her face and pulled them behind her ear. Emma couldnt hold her feeling back any longer. She burst into tears covering her mouth with her hand. She cries like she never had before. Tears rolled off her face and she was broken inside. She hugged Freya's body still crying.

"I love you Freya. I will always remember you. You will never be forgotten no matter what." She cries into Freya. Killian walked up behind her and sat beside her hugging Emma. He too began crying extremely hard as he couldnt contain it. They had lost one of their children and it would haunt them forever.

Liam and Henry came into the room and saw how heartbroken Emma and Killian were. They were both over Freya crying their eyes out. Henry didnt want Liam to see this as he was only 14 and it would permanently stain his mind. "Liam, lets go. We will come back later." Henry tells Liam. Liam nods his head and they both walk out again.

But Emma and Killian didn't leave. They stayed in Freya's room for the rest of the day and most of the night. Emma fell asleep in a chair beside Freya's bed which alerted Killian that it was time to leave. He lifted Emma bridal style and brought her to bed and tucked her in. He too climbed into bed preparing himself for the next day.

| Guys im sorry to tell you but I'm not planning in bringing Freya back 😓
   However i do have a plot coming up which i hope you will enjoy! This book will be finishing soon and i don't have anything planned until i finish my other ff, unexpected love. |