[REWRITING] Help Me So I Can Rise Again (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 4 - Mistake

Sorry, this chapter is shit because my favorite actor is dead. R.I.P Cory Monteith xx

Cory taught me many things by being in Glee. About being different, and there's way how we all can come together. Fat people, skinny people, short and tall people. Everyone. 

World will miss him xx

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

- Louis POV-

"Are you okay?" Jessica asks as she comes to me after last period.

"Yeah.." I answer quietly.

"C'mon, what happened with Harry?" she asks.

I have no idea, to be honest. I said things I shouldn't have said... I just made everything even worse. 

"I-I actually offered help to him to stop smoking and drinking and I have no idea why and now everything is worse and I don't know why do I even care" I say quickly. 

"Oh" she says and her face is shocked. 

We just stand there for a while before she open her mouth to talk. 

"Do you like him?" she asks and now it's my turn to be shocked. 

"What the Hell, Jessica? I've known him only few days! Basically I still don't know him but that's just crazy okay?" I almost shout. 

"Oh okay.. Then see you tomorrow, right?" she asks smirking. 

"Yeah, sure.." I say hesitating. 

*in home*

I log into Facebook and I see my beautiful girlfriend online. 

Me:Hey beautiful, what's up?

Eleanor Calder: Umm.. Louis.. I think we need to split off..

WAIT.

Did she just say that we need to break up? What I did wrong?

Me: Can I ask why?

Eleanor: It's just because it's not working, babe.

Me: Eleanor, I know you too well. What's going on?

Eleanor: Honey, I know you're gay, okay? And everyone else knows it now, so maybe we should say to everyone that we' haven't been together in weeks?

What the Hell? How everyone can know?

Harry.

Me: What? How you know? How everyone knows?

Eleanor: Oh you little kid, check Styles' profile.

No, this ain't happening. No no no. 

I quickly close chat and I search Harry Styles. I find him and I see it. 

Picture of my diary. 

From that page where I admit that I'm gay. 

No. 

Comments are most like 'that fag' and 'I knew he was gay' and 'Ew'.

I feel like I could die in this moment.

Why he hates me so much?

I've done nothing to him. I can't believe he did this. 

Harry Styles: You like what you see in picture?

Me: Why Harry, why? I've done nothing to you!

Harry: Oh nothing? You brought your gay ass to my school!

Me: Harry, please take it away from your profile. I'm praying..

Harry: Hah, everyone has seen it already!

Me: Are you happy now? You ruined my life!

Harry: I just wanna make you realize that I don't need your help! Don't talk to me in school, twat. Don't. You can only talk to me about our music project but that's all. 

Me: Why would you think that I WANT to talk to you?

Harry: Maybe you have a crush on me, because you probably have and you know, I told that to everyone too.

Me: But that's a lie!

Harry: C U tomorrow, loser.

My social life is ruined. My whole life is ruined. I hate my life. 

But I need to stay strong. 

I feel tears falling from my eyes. 

I don't have crush on him and he lied to everyone that I have. This can't be happening. I wish this would just be a dream. A nightmare. 

I don't want this. 

I don't want anything. 

I don't want to be here anymore. 

-HARRY POV-

To be honest, this was the worst mistake in my life. Ever. 

Louis have done nothing to me, and I'm still mean to him. 

No, I'm more than mean to him if that's possible. 

I shouldn't have done this. I ruined his life. 

No. This was right to him. He's gay and this is his problem. He's sick. It's not normal to be gay. It's sick and it's wrong. 

I made a right choice. 

But how can I face him tomorrow?

Why everything is so confusing right now?

Shit. 

I take my phone and I open new text. 

To: Louis

I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking.

And I send it. He don't have my number. He don't know I sent it. Which is good, because he don't need to know. 

Wait, does this mean, that I like him? 

No, I'm not gay. 

Stupid thought. 

My phone is buzzing as I get new text.

From: Louis

You ruined everything. Shut up and never talk to me again. I HATE YOU 

Shit he knows.

xxxx

What you think?

I'm sorry, I've been crying all day, because I still can't believe Cory is dead. 

This isn't my best writing, but I'll post this anyways. 

Bye

xx