The Show Must Go On (Jaythan)

#17: Get Married

Nathan's POV

Four months left.

Jay and I had been going through his list, doing everything possible that was on it. We still had a lot more to do, but we had done a lot.

We were onstage again. I adjusted my earpiece as Max was introducing the next song. The fans all knew about Jay's...condition. They, too, were trying to make him happy.

Tom started off Walks Like Rihanna. I drowned out all thoughts of Jay and focused on singing.

After the song, Jay took his mic out of its stand and walked over to stand next to me.

"How many of you want Siva and Nareesha to get married?" he asked, out of the blue. We laughed as the crowd screamed. "How do you think Siva would pop the question?" Jay gave the mic to a girl in front.

"I think they'll have a nice romantic dinner and stuff," she squeaked.

Jay thanked her and took his microphone. "Is that what you all think?" The crowd yelled its approval. "Well, not all proposals are planned out."

The crowd fell silent, confused.

"Not every proposal is going to be a huge ordeal, with a romantic setting and soft music. Several of them are unplanned. Spontaneous. Different. Unique." Jay fumbled in his pocket and smiled at me. I raised an eyebrow, mouthing 'what are you doing?'

"And you all are in for a treat today," Jay told the crowd, still looking at me. "You all know that I'm dying and the surgery probably will go wrong. I have four months until..." he coughed and carried on. "And I want to be my happiest in those four months." Jay winked at me and got down on one knee. He pulled out a little box as the crowd screamed. "And that can only be with you, Nathan. You told me you would stay by my side and never stop loving me. And I know this is selfish of me because you'll watch me die and feel grief, and yet I won't feel anything. But I couldn't be my happiest and my proudest without you by my side. Nathan Sykes, will you marry me?"

I stared at him, shocked.

Slowly, I smiled. "Less than four months to plan a wedding? Jeez Jay, we'd better get to work," I said.

The crowd erupted.

Jay stood up and squeezed me tight. I rocked him back and forth, pressing my face into his shoulder.

I pulled away and talked into my microphone. "You know, when I first met Jay, this is not what I expected would happen," I said. "I thought he was perfect best mate material. I didn't really look at him that way. For the longest time, I was blind to his feelings and mine. Then came the car accident, and...things changed. It was like I couldn't imagine myself as a person if he died right there in that bed. He is as much of me as myself. Now, I know he's going to die. And there is nothing in the world that can make that okay. It's not fair that he's being cruelly ripped from this world. But at least this time, we have each other. I will be right by his side if...when...he dies. And up until that moment. And it's okay if I never get married again. It's all okay because Jay is the only person I will ever love. He deserves the best. And if for him, the best is me, I will gladly give it to him."

The crowd "AWWW" 'd as Jay kissed me. My cheeks grew wet as our tears mix and mingle.

The other boys ran up at join in the group hug. I looked to see Max, Siva, and Tom all crying. You know it's hard to keep it together when Tom cries.

"I'm so happy," Max said, wiggling my ear. "Da boys are getting married!"

After the show, we accepted the congratulations and kind words. We piled into the van and head off to the hotel.

I rested my head on Jay's shoulder. I could hear his heartbeat, thumping normally for once. His fingers brushed along my hair.

"I love you," I whispered.

"Thank you, Nathan," he replied.

"Whatever for?"

"I get to spend my life with you."

I started crying. Anyone else would have meant that they got to be married to someone and live with them. Jay meant that he would spend the rest of his four months with me. He would live the rest of his life with me. And he felt special, though he was going to die.

I hugged him closer to me. I didn't want to ever let him go from my grasp.

{A/N I don't know how long it will be before I update! Vacation is coming up and I don't know if I will have Internet :O the horror! So I'm sorry if I don't update for over a week! ~Pickles}