Just Another Fangirl

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Recap: Claudia walks into her house to see her brother.

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Why?

After all these years?

He had to show up after the worst weeks of my life?

It was all getting better.

He is one of the worst things in my life.

I step forward, with much hesitation.

You don't know much about my brother.

I live with my mom, who is never home. And my brother left awhile ago.

After my mom's divorce, he coped with his feelings horibbly.

He got into drugs, and drinking.

He dropped out of highschool and, has been living who knows where for years now.

Last time I saw him, he was drunk.

Really drunk.

He walked right out of the house with nothing, but the outfit he was wearing.

To my suprise, he wears that outfit now.

Dirty and teared and too big.

He has lost a lot of weight.

"Jake?" I whisper.

"Claudia!" He seems sober.

Fully aware of his surroundings.

He steps closer to me and I step back.

Not really meaning to.

His face shows a mix of emotions.

He looks down in shame before looking back up.

He gets himself together before saying anything else.

"Sorry to show up without saying anything, but I dont really have any form of communication at the moment.." He trails off.

"What do you mean?" (NO REFERENCE INTENDED! ;) I know y'all are gonna be up in that comment section with that JB.)

"I'm kind of...well...not in the best place, right now."

"You're living from the car...?" I whisper, asking more to myself.

He nods slightly, ashamed.

"Why are you here, and how did you even get in?" I ask him.

"I stopped by the house, and you weren't there..I asked around and got this address, and well..here I am." He offers me a genuine smile.

I smile back, trying to look genuine.

I look down, slightly embarassed to introduce my best friends family to my brother while hes...like this.

Turning around, I look back at Mac, and her mom.

"I'm sorry Mac, Evan, and Mac's mom. May we be excused?" I ask, gesturing to Jake and I.

"Oh, no worries, honey. You may." She smiles, gently.

I nudge Jake, who seems to be in his own little world, and point outside.

He nods, seeming to have a clear understanding of what I was getting at.

We both walk outside, and Mac mouths "good luck," before closing the door behind us.

So here I am.

Standing outside with the boy that has done so much to me without knowing.

Has ruined me without knowing.

Has changed me without intention.

Made me who I am, without realizing.

Built me up just to break me down.

I look him dead in the eyes, catching all emotions.

It all hits be.

Its all real.

"I can't.." I break down.

No, I'm not sobbing.

He doesn't deserve my tears.

Not yet. Not ever.

I stand there not really knowing what to do other than stand awkwardly trying not to cry.

The guilt is evident in Jake's eyes.

He knows im crying because of him.

Jake tries to say something and steps forward in the process.

Something triggers inside me.

Something tells me to run.

To run from the danger.

And with that, I run back inside, not bothering to shut the door behind me.

Into Evans warm, muscular arms.

"There, there." He coos.

"Everything will be alright."

I look him in the eye.

I see the sincerety in his eyes.

The shame i feel makes me feel like a coward.

I always have been one.

Looking back down, I shake more.

The thing is, although i know evan would never lie to me,

Everything won't be alright.

And it never will be.

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Hey guys, Mani here! Sorry, I've been trying to update but, I just could never find the time! Well, at least you got one now! Another update is underway, don't worry. How have you all been? Good, I hope. Please don't forget to comment, and vote!

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Omg!! My mac and cheeses!! How are you?? You can all thank Emani for this update because shes way better at this staying updated thing than me.

Anyway hope you loved it ♡♡

Love, c