Finding Hope [A Carl Grimes FanFic]

C11 ~Adapting To The Surroundings

It's been a couple weeks since I arrived at Alexandria. Ron and I were ...dating?
Enid was my new best friend, also my roommate. And with all the fun things to do here, the things that can distract me. I still can't stop myself from thinking about Carl.

Sometimes I'll be with Ron and I'll see Carl, or start day dreaming about him. At night I have dreams about what might be happening to him. In all, I'm always distracted, all the time.
Being with Ron also annoys me, but I've realized that Carl is probably dead by now, and I need to move on.

I'm trying everything to keep my mind off of him. I even asked Deanna for a job. She made me her...assistant? I basically help her with planning and work. It's fun sometimes. But I still find myself thinking about him,

I mean when I thought Ron had died, I was fine with it, but now that I think Carl is dead.... I hate it.

Okay enough about Carl, I'm trying to keep my mind off of him!

Currently I was with Deanna, we were trying to figure out where we were having the party tonight at. The party was an idea Deanna had, she thought because we had made an expansion with the wall, we should celebrate.

"Why don't we host it at Mine and Reg's house! It'll feel more comfortable there since we are the leaders." She suggests putting her hand on my upper arm asking for my opinion.

"That sounds like a plan," I smile at her.

"Then a plan it is! I'll tell everyone, you're free to go home! Thank you for your help," Deanna says waving me goodbye. I exit the door and limp down the stairs. Only two more weeks with these horrid crutches.

I start walking down the road, in search of my house. This place was slowly growing on me. We had houses and food. There was people, and everyone knew everyone. The only problem was, this place was making me weak. And I can't be weak. I don't want to be. I need to resist the urge to adapt to my surroundings. If this place makes me weak, and something bad happens. I won't be able to protect myself.

Carl's POV
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(A/N : Wasn't expecting that, we're you?)

I sat in the church, just thinking about Hope. What if she's dead. What if I never see her again? Dammit. I shouldn't have left her there on that bus. I should have taken her with me.
Even though Maggie said she didn't see Hope on that bus. I'm still sure she was on it. Or who knows, maybe she wasn't? Maybe she got off to look for me... Because I'm a stupid idiot!

I kick the pew in front of me, catching the attention of Sasha, who was cutting up the pews.

She was still mad about Bob. He died yesterday. She was a bit shaky and unstable. Just in the way I was. We were going through the same thing. But I was worse. At least she knows he's dead. But me? I have to suffer every day, knowing Hope isn't safe, or isn't even alive anymore. I'd give anything to know the truth. Just to know wether she was alive or... Or ... Dead.

"Carl, we're going on a run, into Atlanta. That's where Daryl says Carol and Beth are. We're going to find them. You stay here with Michonne, Judith and Gabriel, we should be back by tomorrow. Will you be okay?" Dad says walking up with everyone behind him.

"Yeah, we'll be fine." I say picking up Judith, "be safe." I finish saying.

As soon as they leave, we board up the door. The spikes outside should keep the walkers out, but we still need to be safe.

~time skip~

It's been a while, Gabriel had gone into his room, to sleep. He's been there a long time. Guess he has no problem sleeping, under the circumstances.

That's when we heard screaming for help outside. Michonne and I exchanged glances.

"Michonne! Michonne! It's me! Open the door!" The voice screamed, pleading for safety. I immediately knew it was Gabriel. How'd he get outside?

Michonne grabs an axe and starts splitting the wood blocking the door in half. The door opens and Gabriel pushes in. Then we close the doors quickly, but the walkers push up against it. Shit. We push against them.

"Follow me!" Gabriel said running off to his room. We follow him, and his room opens to reveal a hole in the floor.

"Hurry, go down, it leads outside. We'll be safe. I'll hold them back and you go first." He says motioning for me to go with Judith.

I crawl down and out of the hole, looking around before standing up.

We were on the side of the church.

Moments after wards Michonne and Gabriel were both out too. We took this opportunity to close the door in the front, locking all the walkers in the church.

We did it but the walkers were pushing up against the doors. We started pushing back. That's when we heard,

"Get out of the way!!"

We all jumped off the porch and onto the grass below. That's when the bright red fire truck ran through the porch, blocking the walkers from getting out. I smiled.

"You're back?" Michonne says clearly confused.

"Eugene wasn't actually a scientist who could save the world. In fact he doesn't know the first thing about science. He's just a really good liar, who wanted to survive." Glenn explains.

My smile fades, " So there's no cure?" I ask

"There could be, but he doesn't know it." Rosita answers, sadness in her voice.

"Where's Rick and the others?" Maggie asks, looking around for them.

"They went to Atlanta, to find Beth and Carol." I answer, repositioning Judith.

"Well then, let's go find them." Abraham exclaims.

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A/N

Wrote this chapter like a week ago so I'm really sorry if it sucks!! I just quickly scanned it for spelling and grammar mistakes. Btw if you find any please feel free to let me know.

This story is starting to annoy me because I have such a great idea for later on.... But I have to wait like 5 years!!! Urg jk I have to wait like 5 chapters. And by then I'll forget my epic plans!!! 😭

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~Kayla