A Cutters Diary (editing)

A Cutters Diary

You will always have your ups and downs, for me the higher I go the harder I fall...

It gets so hard I would take a bullet to my chest with out flinching. I don't want to hurt anyone but I always do.

I hate I hate I want to die. Someone please help me. I'm losing it. I'm going crazy. I want my blades and I want to slice open my skin more then anything. I hate this. I don't care any more. My life is worthless. I'm sitting here in the corner being ignored and forgotten. A few greases thrown my way but what for. Their all in their bubbles of friends and smiling, happy, laughing, and talking, me I'm just sitting here trying to stop my tears from flowing out.

I want to die I'm over this all. My life is just a mess I hate it. I don't deserve any of you in my life. You guys deserve so so much better then me...

Oh god please don't hate me if I stuff up again. I can't control this any more. My head is pounding, I'm tired, broken, emotionless, and lost.

I can't talk to mum. No way.

For fuck sake please shut the fuck up!! I've had enough. I want this to fucking end already. I need a change. I need a new life. I need a new start.

You are destroying me, killing me. I've changed because of you and I can't get rid of you. But I need you.

Make it all go away.

I need you to fix me.