You Can Make It (Gus De St Jeor, Ryland & Rocky Lynch & Shawn Mendes (Book 1)

What Happened?

Last time

"Nothing that you need to know" I tell Riker patting his head as I walk past him sitting down next to him. He glares at me, I stick my tongue out at him,

"You suck" he says. Just as his parents and grandparents walk in.

"Riker don't talk to Maya like that" his grandma says, I smile at her.

"Thank you" I tell her she smiles and winks, I laugh softly, I feel someone sit next to me but I know its not Rocky, I look to my side and see Ryland, I give him a small smile and look around the table, Rocky he and Ross are talking leaning against the wall.

"Boys sit down, dinners ready" Mark tells them. They both look up and Rocky looks at me then to Riker and Ryland who are next to me then to Gus, Ratliff and Delly who are across from us.

"Ry sit here" he says standing in front of the chair at the very end as Ross takes the one next to it.

"Whyyyyy, I've already sat down, you spent the whole day with Maya, I wanna talk with her" he whines, I roll my eyes.

"Fine Rik, Rik!, Riker!" he says snapping his older brother out of the very close lovey dovey conversation he was having with Vanni who was sitting next to him.

"Yeah, sorry, whats'up" he asks looking at Rocky.

"Come sit here"

"Why I'm sitting next to Vanni plus your already there, I'm not getting up and if it's just cause you wanna sit next to Maya, you've been with her most of the day maybe I wanna talk to her" he says smirking at Rocky as Rocky glares at him.

"Rock its fine" I say softly, he stares at me silently asking if I'm sure, before I nod,

"Rocky, Maya, sweetie is everything ok?" Stormie asks, I stiffen in my seat and I feel Ry slip his arm around my shoulders, making me relax a little, see Ryland is probably the second one I'm closest too, out of the rest of the fam, (it goes Rocky then Gus then Ry, then I don't know who)

"Yeah everything's fine." Rocky says slowly sinking into his seat. I glance up from my lap everyone's looking at me; I shift uncomfortably and move a little closer to Ryland.

"Wow, it looks great, lets dig in" Ryland says, everyone blinks then starts to serve and starts conversations with each other, I turn to Ry muttering a thanks.

I watch as everyone serves, feeling panic start to rise in me, I can't do this it's too much.

"Maya want some chicken," Riker asks holding the platter and tongs in his hands.

"N-no I'm fine" I say,

"What do you want to eat?" Ry asks as he leans closer to me.

"i-i-I'm not hungry" I stutter quietly, I feel two pairs of eyes on me, I look up and see Gus looking at me questionably, I shift my eyes down the table to where Rocky is watching me, I catch his eye and the panic starts to become larger, I feel tears in my eyes. I stand up pushing my chair back.

"I need some air, I'm not feeling to well," I mutter to Ryland, who nods looking confused. I quickly walk out of the room, though to the living room, I slide open the balcony doors stepping out into the night. I walk to the banister and lean my elbows on it putting my face in my hands taking slow breaths to calm down.

"Maya" I hear softly, I turn to look at Rocky who's standing leaning against the door, I shake my head

"I can't do it, its to hard" I say, he walks towards me taking my hand