You Can Make It (Gus De St Jeor, Ryland & Rocky Lynch & Shawn Mendes (Book 1)

Relationships, hard time of year and something else

Chapter 15

Last time

"I'm scared, I'm scared of what will come from it, I'm scared how people will react, I'm scared of falling quickly" I whisper the last part, that's what I'm truly terrified of, there's something about Shawn that draws me in and I'm so terrified of falling for him quickly, with Gus it was different, for my feelings to truly fully develop it took a year, then to develop into something deep it took a few years.

"Maya, I promise you I'll be there, I promise we can make it, I promise that no matter how fast you fall I'll fall faster, and I'll be there to catch you when you do." His voice hushed, pulling my chin up gently so I can look in his eyes,

"Take the risk, give me a shot, give us a shot" it's silent for a few minutes all you can hear is our breathing.

"Ok" I breath out,

"Ok?" he questions, I nod giving him a small smile, he grins pulling me into a tight hug spinning me around,

"Ok, so after the shoot do you have plans? Wait for are you doing here? Are you helping Sammy out? Do you know if he found someone to take Natalie's place in the video? Wait are you the new girl in my video? That would make sense cause you'd be easy to get cause Sammy is your cousin and he'd probably guilt trip you and you're a great dancer and can act pretty well"

"You know all the time we've been friends you've never rambled and talked this quickly before" I laugh at him, he rolls his eyes as I give him a little shove.

"I'm nervous" he mutters

"Why?" he sighs pulling with him, to sit back down on the floor, he leans back against the wall I sit next to him leaning against him, he wraps his arm around my shoulder.

"You're not the only one who's scared" he says his voice quiet, looking away from me

"Of what?"

"Of you getting hurt by my fans, by your fans, the bands fans, of..."

"Of?"

"Of you getting sick of whatever we have to face and not wanting to be with me anymore" I can't help but smile, knowing he's scared of similar things to me. We both have trust issues when it comes to relationships so if it seems like these are odd things to think of before we even go on a first date, it's because we have trust issues and fear of losing people you care about and who care about you.

"Thank you, for caring about me, but I'm gonna be ok, I've got the band, I've got Ry, I've got the girls, I've got Sammy and Em and I've got you" I say moving so I'm sitting the other way around, so that I'm facing him but so that we are still sitting next to each other. I take his hands in mine entwining our fingers.

"I'm not going to run if it gets hard, and if I start to run then I know you'll stop me before I get too far, we can do this Shawn" he gives me a smile nodding his head. There's a knock at the door,

"Maya? Are you in there?" I hear Sammy's voice,

"Yeah, it's open" I reply, a minute later Sammy's head pokes in, when he sees us his eyebrows raise at our close positon and our hands. I blush looking down.

"Shawn?!" Sammy raises his voice glaring at the boy whose hand is holding mine. Shawn jumps up, dropping my hand, Sammy is probably the most protective of me about boys, slightly more than Rocky and Ryland.

"Sammy calm down" I say as I stand up next to Shawn, he ignores me still glaring at Shawn,

"Maya go get dressed and then meet me at the food table, you need to eat" I glare at him