You Can Make It (Gus De St Jeor, Ryland & Rocky Lynch & Shawn Mendes (Book 1)

Heart breaks, realisations & airports

Last time
I leave in about 30 minutes and Gus still isn't back, we are all just talking and I'm scrolling through my phone, I just posted a snapchat of me and Ryland, my heart stops as I see the latest photo Gus posted on Instagram

He's sitting on the floor of a room he's knees propped up caging in his 'friend' Kyla, who's leaning against his chest, they are sitting the way I only sit with Rocky, Ry and him. The way that makes me feel protected and that I can trust the person and that I'm not alone. Not only that, she's wearing the jacket, the present I got for him, the one he wouldn't even let Ryland touch, the one he said I was the only other person who got to wear it because I was special, I was special to him, more special then the jacket. She's wearing it. I knew it, he was lying he doesn't care, I'm not special to him. Tears prick my eyes, I close it and go to snapchat opening it and find Gus's name, I click on on only to see another picture of them together, she's kissing his cheek and he's smiling, then there's a video and he's chasing after her in the snow and he picks her up spinning her around as she laughs. I go to her story, I'm friends with her cause of Gus, Gus is kissing her cheek in a photo then they are using the puppy dog filter which is both mine and Gus's favourite, we use it so much. I push the power button on my phone, I stand up quickly, I ignore the looks from everyone as I walk towards the stairs.
"I just remembered I packed something I shouldn't have" I mutter the rush up the stairs, I go to my room and open my suitcase pulling out Gus's t-shirt and jumper he lent me, he told me to take them in case I needed his comfort when I was with Sammy.
"Maya, what are you doing?" I hear Rocky's voice
"I told you, I remembered I packed something I shouldn't have" I say as I re zip my suitcase.
"Which was a jumper and a t-shirt?" he says sounding confused; I still haven't turned to look at him,
"Yes" I turn around my eyes focused on the ground, I walk towards the door and brush past Rocky who's standing next to the bed, only to find Ryland and Riker there at the door. I ignore them and go to Gus's room, I put the clothes on his bed and take a deep breath trying not to break down.
"Maya what's wrong?" I jump at the sound of Ryland's voice. I turn to them shaking my head,
"Check your snapchat or Instagram" I snap then walk out of the room. I go back to my room grabbing my suite case and carryon, the boys haven't followed me back to the room. I roll my suitcase to the door, just as the boys return, they are all frowning and look pissed.
"Maya" Riker starts but stops not knowing what to say, I look up at him my eyes still brimming with unshed tears, he opens his arms but I know if I hug him I'm going to break down, so I stay where I am, my eyes focusing back on to the ground.
"Maya?" Ry asks, I shake my head moving towards the door again, I feel Rocky shift behind me his arm going round my shoulder, I see Riker nod his head out of my peripheral vision then grabs my suitcase and carryon from me taking them downstairs. Ry follows him glancing back at me I catch his eye and he pokes his tongue out at me I can't help but let out a small laugh.
"You wanna talk or" I shake my head cutting him off, but walk back into the room, I don't want to talk, yet I do.
"It's helped me realised I just had a crush on him, I didn't love him" I say quietly, which is true, this happening made me realised that yeah I really like Gus but I don't think I love him, I don't know how it's helped, maybe cause I've realised that the time for Gus and I isn't now and I don't know when it will be so I might start thinking about other guys."
"Ok, but how are you?" I finally look into my best friends eyes and let a few tears make their way down my face. He pulls me into his chest
"It hurts" I whisper, he rubs my back, nodding his head
"I'm sorry babe, I don't know what he was thinking, I mean he told us he liked you" I shake my head,
"Can we just not talk about it, or him or me and him. I want to go downstairs and just hang out with everyone"
"Ok, let's go" he says getting up, and wiping the stray tears on my face, he throws his arm around my shoulder as we head downstairs. We walk over to the others and I sit down on the floor in front of Vanni.
"Maya we have to leave in about 15 minutes" Riker tells me I nod,
"Oh and this fell out of your bag" he says handing me the dvd with my other present for Gus and he's brothers, I take it off him
"Gordy" I say he turns his head towards me
"This is for the Gboy's ok, don't watch it till I'm gone" he nods standing up and taking it off me
"What is it?" he asks, I roll my eyes
"If I wanted you to know that I'd probably let you watch it now" he sticks his tongue out at me
"But, it's just an extra present for you guys" he nods.

"You sure you wanna leave?" Rocky asks, as we wait in the van while Riker puts my stuff in the back, I nod my head I've said my goodbyes to everyone, R5, Ry, Vanni and Court are all coming to the airport with me Rikers driving with Vanni in the passenger seat, in the first row its Ryland then me then Rocky's in the second Ross and Courtney and in the very back its Rydel then Ell.
"Alright let's go" Riker says as he hopes in. I lean back against Rocky. We all laugh and talk the whole way there and they all come and wait by the gate with me.
Flight JK784 to New York is now boarding
I let out a shaky breath,
"That's me" we all stand up, I hug Ell and Delly, then Vanni who all say be safe and they love me they'll talk to me soon
"Call me if you need to talk ok" Court whispers as we hug, I nod
"You too" Ross is next
"I'll miss you Shor, see you on your birthday"
"I'll miss you too" he says hugging me tightly, next is Riker
"Be safe ok, if you need anything just call or text me ok, have a good time with Sammy, call us though let us know how everything's going" I nod hugging him tightly
"You two, please be safe, make sure everyone else is, don't let them get hurt while paying ice hockey" I tell him nodding my head towards Ryland and Rocky who are most likely to be the ones who get hurt.
"or anyone get hurt anyway, and please call me if anything happens ok please I can't have anything happen to any of you" I say my voice cracking
"I will, we will all be ok, try not to worry to much" I nod
"Love you big bro" I smile at him as we pull away
"Love you to little sis" he says as he kisses my forehead. I turn to Ry and wrap my arms tightly around his neck
"You better call me" he mumbles against my hair, I nod
"Don't get hurt, and please make sure he's happy and having a good time, you have to have a good time too" I tell him I feel him nod against my neck
"We'll be fine, but you have to promise me your going to try and have fun to, forget about Gus maybe if Sammy is doing a photo shoot or new music video with some cute boys in it you can date one of them" we laugh and pull away, I nod
"Don't worry if that happens you and Rock will be the first to know" he kisses my forehead and gives me another hug.
"Love you M"
"Love you too Baby Lynch" I Ry rolls his eyes at the nickname. Next is Rocky I throw my arms around his neck holding him tightly.
"I'm going to miss you so much, I'm so sorry for leaving like this Rock"
"Maya it's fine ok, go have fun with Sammy I'll se you on Ross's birthday and we'll text and Skype or call ok" I nod
Last call for for Flight JK784 to New York
"I've got to go, I love you so much, be safe ok"
"Love you too M you be safe as well" we pull away and he like Riker and Ry kiss me gently on the forehead. I turn to face them all grabbing my carryon from Ross
"Boys I swear if you hurt him you'll be in so much trouble ok, just let him be I'm actually ok with it, or I will be I'm getting to be, but don't mention me ok just please"
"Maya chill, we will make sure they don't stop worrying"
"Bye, love you, I'll talk to you later." I say walking towards the gate the lady check my tickets.

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What do you think about Gus and Kyla?

Do you think it's a good idea for Maya to go to NY

I have no problem with Kyla, I think she's really nice and sweet and gorgeous, this is just for purpose of the story.