You Can Make It (Gus De St Jeor, Ryland & Rocky Lynch & Shawn Mendes (Book 1)

Big deal over nothing

Chapter 6

Last time

"We're going to the balcony" I say moving out of his grip. I go around the couch and make my way to the door before a firm grip on my arm stops me; lucky it wasn't the arm I had cut. I turn around and see Ross standing in front of me.

"You can't keep running away every time things get tough" he says my eyes widen when his breath hits my face, it smells of alcohol, he's drunk or at least a little bit tipsy, I hear gasps coming from the others.

"Babe, leave her alone" Courtney says getting up and putting her hand on his shoulder, he roughly shakes it off, I look at her and she looks shocked and hurt and slightly worried, Ross has never acted like this, or at least I've never seen him like this when he's been drunk, he's more of the stupid funny drunk.

"No she's running away again"

"When else have I run away when it got hard, hunh?" I ask getting mad now.

"What about today, when you left at lunch and made everyone worry so we had to wait like an hour before we could even order lunch"

"Ross dude, stop" Riker says now walking over to us, everyone else is watching frozen, worried and shocked at Ross's behaviour. Ryland has his arm around Gus's shoulder, who is now sitting on the couch with Ratliff next to them; I think Ratliff is only there to prevent both boys from attacking Ross, if he does something to me, or takes this to far.

"No I wont stop" Ross snaps bring my attention back to him.

"She's already started ruining our holiday, its her fault Rocky isn't here and that he wasn't with us to play hockey with us today, because poor little Maya was sad because she missed her family, so she ran away because she didn't want us to see her cry" he says in a mocking voice, I feel like he's slapped me.

"That's not the only reason I needed time today Ross," I say my voice soft, hurt clearly shown, I never thought Ross would say these kind of things.

"Oh yeah what other possible reasons could you have" he snarls, I open my mouth to speak but then decided against it, I don't know weather I want everyone to know what else happened today, (all the kids and their parents have gone to bed, except Gus, its just the lynch's grandparents, Mark and Stormie, the Lynch kids, Court, Vanni and Ratliff)

"Didn't think so, your ruining the holiday, you should just leave" Ross says

"Ok dude that's enough, don't talk to her like that, you don't know anything that's been happening to her," Gus snaps getting up over to me and Ross, Ry and Ell letting him go Ry looks pissed like Gus and Ell looks like the others, annoyed an shocked like they can't move,

"I bet she was just making a big deal out of nothing."

"A big deal out of nothing!" I snap Ross smirks at me nodding

"Yeah, I bet your just being over sensitive"

"Dude shut" Gus starts but I cut him off

"Well I thought it was nothing that's why I didn't say anything, I thought that not eating anything for 5 days was nothing, I thought that your fans, hating on me because I was best friends with Rocky, just best friends not even his fucking girlfriend, or getting hate because I'm hanging out with Gus, or getting it because I'm spending Christmas with you because I don't have my parents or brother to spend it with. I'm making a big deal out of people telling me to kill myself so I can join my parents and brother, because that would make everyone happier, especially Rocky. Or people telling me I'm a slut, or fat or ugly or worthless or that my parents and brother probably killed them selves because they didn't want to be with me. Or in ever single photo or video I post with Gus in it then telling me I'm to fat and stupid and pathetic for him to ever like me. And that you're whole family is only pretending to love me because you feel sorry for me. And how soon your all going to leave me just like my family did. I didn't think this was a big deal but apparently it is." I say my voice loud, tears burning my eyes, as I rip up the arm of Rocky's jumper showing him my cuts.

"But you know what your fucking right, I wanted to leave because I thought I was running your holiday but Rocky told me not to. So don't worry Ross, by tomorrow night I'll be gone." I snap finally I don't wait for a reply I run up to mine and Rocky's room. I grab my towel and new undergarments then go into the bathroom connected to our room, I quickly rush around grabbing all sharp things and putting them in the bin then putting the bin out side our room so I'm not tempted, I lock the door to our room. I'm not going to break my promise to Gus and Rocky. I quickly go back in to the bathroom. I hear shouting from down stairs; I turn taps in the shower letting it heat up as I strip down. I can't believe Ross; I never thought he'd ever say those things. I get in the shower, washing my hair and body slowly. I get out and dry myself. I then wrap my hair out and go in to my Room. I go to my suite case and grab a thicker pair of sweats then I was wearing today because it gets colder at night, I then walk over to Rocky's suite case I grab a t-shirt and a warmer jumper. I walk over to the desk and grab my laptop and head phones, I get into the bed, it's a small ish room with a double bed, but Rocky and I share all the time and I asked him to share with me, cause around this time of year I get nightmares about their deaths. I plug my headphones in a go on Netflix putting Teen Wolf on

I then open a new tab and look up plane ticketsto New York, my older cousin is staying there for a couple of months becausehe's doing this photography course and filming some new music video there anddoing a photo shoot or something he's 18 and out of all my cousins I'm closestwith him, he's one of my best friends but I hardly see him cause he's superbusy all the time. I know Rocky won't want me to go and I know Ross will be sorry in the morning but there's already been too much drama. I pause Teen Wolf, and take my head phones out to call my cousin I can still hear yelling from down stairs. I dial my cousin's number hoping he'll pick up; I sigh in relief when he does.

M- Maya, S- Sammy (Maya's cousin he's names Samuel)

S- Hey shorty how's it going?

M- can I come spend Christmas with you?

S- Yeah, Maya you know you don't have to ask, but I thought you were spending it with Rocky and his Family

He says sounding worried, and slightly confused.

M- I was, I mean I am I'm in Colorado but I just can't deal with everything, I'll explain when I get there, my flight leaves here at 9 tomorrow night.

S- ok I'll meet you at the airport, is it ok if Em comes too

Em, or Emily is Sammy's girlfriend for 4 years.

M- yeah of course

S- ok see ya then, I've got to go, luv ya

M- luv ya too.

I say before we hang up. I sigh I know Rocky is going to be upset by me leaving but I really want to get out of here I'm not ready for Christmas here, I've been here since the accident but never at Christmas time. The shouting has quietened down. I hear a knock at my door as I finish booking my ticket to New York, I also booked one for Vegas from the 28th to the 2nd cause that's where the Lynch's are going to be for New Years and Ross's Birthday and I still want to spend it with them.

"Maya, its me can you open the door" I hear Gus's voice, I sigh getting up and opening the door, my eyes widen and my hand flies up to my mouth when I see him a gasp coming out of my mouth.

OK so theres the next chapter

Hope you liked it let me know.

FIY i don't think Ross would ever act like that (even when he's drunk, i recon (have seen) he's more of the funny weird crazy type of drunk, but it's for the story,)