Is This The Real Life?

Yo friends

Updatessssssss

Trigger warning

I relapsed yesterday. And I hurt myself today too. I'm not very okay.

I haven't skipped a meal since last year but it's getting harder.

I don't sleep well. I may have insomnia. I have really strange sleeping patterns. I wake up in the night randomly. It can take about four hours of trying for me to fall asleep. Sleeping is hard and I hate it.

I want to do bad things. My judgement could fail me.

My parents know I'm a boy but don't believe it and show no respect for me.

My anxiety is really bad all the time and I'm always on edge.

My OCD is messing with me and it annoys my family.

I've been getting suicidal thoughts again.

I need my friends.

I'm not very okay.

I don't know what to do. I have to keep fighting. I don't know what I'm feeling anymore.

Love ya
Carter
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