10 Years (Zerkaa/TBJZL) (A Sidemen Story)

Chapter 27 - Deathly Signs

"We break up" replied Tobi, bawling his eyes out.

Josh started to do the same, the other five joining in,  the living room an arena of mass weeping. Josh realised that despite what he wanted, he couldn't go, nothing was in his favour. He was still beyond angry, outraged they wouldn't let him break free and be his own person, do something he desperately wanted to do, but this was a step too far and he could see that. Josh composed himself.

"FINE. I won't go. I can't lose you Tobi, you're the best thing in my life." he said sorrowfully, upset he couldn't take his opportunity.

The others calmed down and attempted to hug him, delighted that he'd changed his mind. He just let them hug him but after a while Josh couldn't hide his anger, they had brought him into a group hug. He wriggled out of it and pushed them all away.

"I'm not fucking happy about this at all. you would let me do what I wanted if you knew what was best for me, you would want me to be happy doing something new, if you were true friends. BUT EVIDENTLY NONE OF YOU FUCKING ARE." he yelled the last sentence with a sharp acid tongue and ran upstairs to his room, wanting to alleviate himself from the pressures of the outside world.

A few hours passed. The other Sidemen felt guilty but they knew that if Josh left for such a long time, things wouldn't be same, he was too important to too many people. They wanted him to be happy they truly did, but they felt they had to be a bit selfish on this occasion. Josh was their rock, protecting the group from the violent crashing waves.

Tobi went and knocked on Josh's door, they couldn't just give up now. They'd been through too much for too long, it was more than ten years now and a few years over a decade of friendship could not be so easily extinguished, something that had been proven by the adversity they'd faced as a couple.

"Come in" mumbled a saddened Josh.

Tobi walked in and hugged him and then passionately kissed him.

"I'm so sorry Josh. I know you wanted this but I just can't do it."

"I know Tobz. I know." sighed Josh, comforting his partner by placing his hand on his knee.

"I'm sorry Tobi, I didn't mean for it to get so heated down there, forgive me?"

"Of course I do Josh, I'm sorry."

"It's ok Tobz. Who needs a new job when I've got you?" said Josh smiling and laughing.

Tobi blushed, uplifted by their heart to heart chat.

"I'm going to get some sleep. I'm knackered and it's been a long day, care to join me?" said Josh winking.

Tobi blushed once more, but respectfully declined the suggestive offer: "I would Josh but I think I'll sleep on the sofa tonight, let's have some restful times for ourselves."

Josh pouted sadly in a joking manner, but understood "I agree Tobz, get some rest. love you."

"Love you too Joshy." replied Tobi, flattering Josh with the more affectionate version of his name.

Josh got into bed and closed his eyes and drifted into a deep sleep.

The Sidemen had decided to go out for the day, something they got to do very rarely, they went around London, had a meal, went shopping and it was relaxing for them. Relaxing until they were recognised by a bucket load of fans, but they weren't angered or upset about this, they each dedicated times to their fans gracefully, greatly appreciating their support. The day had been fun, Simon and Ethan had discussed how their relationship had gone as had Josh and Tobi. Most surprisingly of all, a huge announcement was made. Harry and JJ were together, two couples had become three and all seven of them had reminisced about their lives since the inception of the Sidemen, where it had brought them, but most of all they all understood what made this all possible: each other. They all decided to get the train home, it was easy and in an odd way kind of relaxing and fun. The station was packed and the boys were walking close to the edge of the platform due to the mass of people. They were walking and chatting to each other until Simon slipped and fell on to the tracks and badly injured himself groaning in pain. All the other six noticed and stood in shock, no one else noticing the incident due to the volume of people milling around.

"OH MY GOD SIMON ARE YOU OK!?" Shrieked Ethan with worry

"I'LL GET HIM!" yelled Tobi bravely and calmly climbing down onto the tracks, picking up the larger, injured Simon, the others full of worry and panic.

"Thank.. Thank... Thank you Tobz" muttered Simon

"Don't mention it buddy, let's get you to safety" said Tobi calmly, he rarely did anything in a non calm manner.

The sound of a locomotive getting close.

The speakers then projected an announcement to the station:

"The next train will be passing through Platform 2 and will not be stopping. Please stand behind the yellow line."

Ethan and Josh's hearts stopped.

It was too late.

The train zoomed through, smashing into Tobi and Simon. Everyone else apart from the five other Sidemen oblivious to what had happened.

The train went through, revealing Tobi and Simon's corpses covered in rivers of blood. They'd stood no chance.

"OH MY GOD NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Shrieked Ethan and Josh simultaneously. Both falling to the floor practically drowning in the pools their tears had created, the other three in disbelief. This couldn't be real.

Josh then suddenly woke up. His nightmare had haunted and effected his very soul.

*Josh's POV*

I'm freaking the fuck out. That nightmare has shook me to the very core.

What am I supposed to think, what does it mean?

Is that the future? Is it a warning? Is it just a mere nightmare?

I then realise and come to terms with something I haven't wanted to. Tobi and I have been through too much adversity. It's obviously ingrained in me that it's just going to escalate. I can't keep the tears in. Me and Tobi being together is actually dangerous. I can't endanger him and we can't endanger the others. It may seem like nothing, but it's made me realise that despite everything I've said and everything we've done, we've got no chance. I can't help but feel that something beyond awful is going to happen. 

I realise what I have to do. I don't want to feel this way, but I'm doing what I think is right for everyone.

I'm accepting the job offer.

I'm leaving on my own to go to Canada.