The Only Hope For Me Is You [My Chemical Romance]

Chapter 11: Secrets Before Lies

~Gerard’s POV~

We stayed like that on the bed for ages. We were silent, and the silence was amazing. There was no need for mindless ‘chit chat’ or banter. I loved just being with her, around her, surrounded by her beauty and the calming presence she brought.

I looked her straight in the eyes, those huge green eyes and smiled brightly. Her replying smile, wide and full of happiness, sent butterflies racing around the pit of my stomach.

I kissed her again slowly, wrapping my arms around her waist to pull her closer towards me on the bed. She pushed her hands through my black hair. How she could stand to though, is beyond me, My hair looks and is absolutely revolting,

Just as the kiss deepened and my heart rate began to speed up in my chest, like a horse beginning to move from a canter to a gallop, the door swung open. The creak of the door alerted my senses and I quickly pulled away from Dana.

This was it, Mikey had found out and we were both screwed. I peeked round my shoulder, afraid to see Mikey standing in the doorway with a stern-shocked look on his face. Instead it was a much smaller boy, although his expression was still one of shock.

“Uhhr.” Frank said awkwardly, stepping into the room and staring down at his feet. “I didn’t know you guys were going out?” He said suddenly, raising his head and walking towards me and Dana.

“Um, Frank? We’re not.” I said quickly in a hoarse whisper. “Where’s Mikey?” I asked worriedly, he could be right round the corner.

“He’s down making more coffee. I swear he’s addicted!” Frank said and then frowned. “Why aren’t you going out? And what was that I just saw then?” He asked accusingly.

“Frank SHHHH.” Dana said in a frantic whisper. “We’re not going out but Mikey doesn’t know about, um, us. So don’t say please, he’ll completely flip. Because Gerard used to be a complete dick.” I flinched and made a face at this point but Dana chose to ignore it. “Mikey knew that we hated each other because we did. But then Gerard and I fought LOADS yesterday and we became friends. Mikey knows that we’ve become friendly but he cannot know any more.” Dana finished and she coughed slightly at her monologue.

Frank stood taking it all in. Then he shifted the weight from his right to his left leg. “I won’t say, but you’d be pretty damn perfect together. Also, Gerard a dick? I never would have though.” Frank said jokingly a smile spread across his little face. I quickly made it disappear by giving him a death glare.

It was silent for just a second then we all fell into hysterics. Mikey walked in and gave us a funny look.

“Okay?” He said and turned to ‘fake’ walk back out. “What’s so funny? Care to share?” He said hopefully, brandishing a cup of steaming coffee,

“Frank was just being Frank.” Dana said, lying very naturally. Frank gave her a half glare but then smiled.

“Nothing special then.” Mikey said grinning. Then he came over to us. “Do you guys want to go out? I was thinking going to see a movie? Or the comic store?” He asked hopefully, looking at me for approval.

I nodded and I saw his face light up. I really did wonder why I had been so distant and horrible to him in the last year. He’s my brother and seeing him happy when I say I’ll hang with him makes me so proud. I stand up, pulling Dana and Frank to the door.

I look at Mikey and beckon him to us. I look at him and I can’t help the feeling of guilt wash over me like a river which had burst it banks and was now flooding a nearby town. I was pretty much lying to Mikey’s face. Well not lying but being secretive and keeping stuff about me and Dana away from him. Now that Frank knew it made it all the worse and I desperately wanted to tell him.