Over thinking (English & Tagalog)

I hate it

I hate it when I feel this.
I hate it when my mind tells me you're not gonna be mine.
I hate thinking about all the possibilities, especially the negatives, when you're not around.
I hate myself for anticipating of what will happen next.
I hate everything when you're not there.
I just, you know, hate the fact that you might not come back.
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I've learned to love and appreciate things only when you're there.
I'm sorry, I can't help it.
I miss you.
I love you.
Ask me why, and I'll ask you how did the universe come to existence.
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