Over thinking (English & Tagalog)

Im sorry

You were there when I felt the weight of the world fell off my shoulder,
You were there when everything was tearing apart, comforting me from my agony,
You were there when everybody was gone,
You were there when I almost bid farewell,
You were there when all the holes started to appear,
You were my lifesaver when my heartbeat was slowly fading,
You even let me feel yours but I didn't even seem to care.

You were there,
And I never bothered.
I never laid any attention.
Still, you were there.

You were there when I cried liter of tears
You were there to fight my fears,
You were there when you didn't even matter to me,
You were there when pain consumes me,
But I didn't know it almost killed you when I was hurting.

I was being too selfish and careless,

Now,
I'm feeling stupid for that one morning shitty realization,
And I treated you like you were nothing
Yet I chose him over you.

It tortures every corner of my heart,
That I can no longer feel your presence.
But things got worst..
I've been fooled.
I gave you up,
I shattered you,

How I wish I never pushed you out of my life,
How I wish I still have somebody who's always there anytime of the day,
How I wish I didn't ruined the last person I held on,
How I wish I didn't lose you..

I missed you.
I'm missing you.
I'm still here.
Though it hurts,
I'm now a fragment of your memory that you would never want to let in.
Again.