Over thinking (English & Tagalog)

I am strong

I am strong yet weak..
I can start a war
but can't survive
nor stand in the middle of battlefield

I am smart yet fool
I am fool not full.
For I can't be serious on something
that is worth it enough to take a risk.

I am happy yet sad
You can see me smiling
but you will never see me crying
'cause I don't want people to pity me.

I am loved but i can't love
It is ironic to loved by somebody
whom I didn't love like I love
somebody who didn't even care.

I am best yet worst.
I am best at being worst
But worst at being best.
That's the truth that I can't no longer change

I am strong yet I am alone.
And I was fool to think that
being strong is having all you want
but the truth is it was loosing what you need

And I don't want to be strong again.
I can't handle it on my own
And I don't want to be pressured by others once again.
I am strong yet tired and I am tired of being strong.