Grimes/ Riggs Imagines

Self Hatred/ Self Love

Imagine:

I stood in front of the mirror. I was only wearing a bra and underwear because I was looking at my body. Ever since we found Alexandria I've been fed a lot of food which means I've gained a little weight. I'm not complaining about the food but I'm scared how my boyfriend, Carl will react to the extra fat. I haven't been intimate with him in a month or two due to my weight gain.

Alexandria is great because of the food, clothes and not having to fight for survival but I feel as if we are weakening. Everyone has gained a little weight due to the excess of food. Everyone has been lounging due to the fact we don't need to run for our lives. Also, we stopped going on runs for supplies and I think we are loosing our skills.

I grimaced at my body one last last before I heard the knob on my door turn. "Carl!" I shouted, quickly pulling a shirt over my head along with jeans on my legs.

"(Y/N), I need to talk to you. C'mere" Carl said, patting his lap as he sat on my bed. "What about?" I asked him, becoming worried. I didn't sit in his lap, I was afraid he might notice the weight if I did. I sat next to him and Carl answered "about us". I was shocked at his answer. "Are you breaking up with me?" I gasped. "No, no not at all" Carl replied, placing his hand on my thigh.

I sighed with relief and then asked "then what's the problem?"  Carl took my hand in his "(Y/N), a few weeks after we found Alexandria, you've kind of become afraid of me. Every time I try to touch you, you won't let me. Every time I try to have sex with you, you tell me 'not now' or 'I'm not in the mood'
and I just want to make sure that you are okay" Carl explained. "Carl I-" I started to say but was quickly interrupted. "You're not pregnant? Are you?" Carl asked, concerned. "No, no it's not that at all" I told him. Carl sighed in relief. "I'm insecure, Carl. Ever since Alexandria, I've gained some weight from the food and not running constantly. I'm scared that if you see me now, you might not like what you see. I'm worried you'll hate my body" I informed him.

Carl took my hand and pulled me into his lap, I sat down and tried not to crush his legs.      "(Y/N), you can sit. You aren't going to crush me" Carl stated. I sat down fully and he smiled at me. "(Y/N), although you may be insecure, I still love you babe. To me, you are stunning, sexy and perfect in every way. If I have to kiss every inch of your body to show you that, I will. Nothing, nothing will ever make me stop loving you." Carl said. I was tearing up a little. I pecked his lips and then Carl said "remember a while ago when we were talking about having our first time? And I told you, I was insecure about the bullet wound scar on my stomach?"  I nodded to him and he finished "you made me feel so loved that I wasn't scared or insecure of it anymore. You shouldn't be insecure around me because every inch of your body defines perfection, (Y/N)". By now I was crying tears of joy and love. "I love you so much, Carl" I smiled, kissing his cheek. "I love you too baby girl" Carl replied.

I smirked getting an idea in my head "if you want, I'm ready to have sex now" I whispered in his ear. Carl smiled and pushed me down on the bed saying "I thought you'd never ask".