Warped

Lynn POV

It was four days until Warped Tour and I was still stuck on whether to bring my teddy bear with me or not. Yes, 20 year old Lynn Gunnulfsen has a teddy bear but you're the one reading this at 2:00 AM probably so who really should be embarrassed here?

       I was waiting for Alex to show up and redoing my eyebrow design when I heard someone talking that was most certainly not Alex. "Don't worry Lynn isn't here. She's on tour." It was my girlfriend Alexa but who was she talking to was my main question. I was just about to shout down to her when I hear another woman's voice but I didn't know this voice.

        "Well then let's get this over with." She sounded professional, I bet she's taller than me. I put down the razor and walked softly on the floor and tip-toed down the stairs. I heard a thump and -what the fuck?! Moaning?! I peaked my head around the corner to see my now ex-girlfriend and some bitch "getting it on" on the couch. I was torn between sadness and utter distraught.

I was about to run back upstairs and jump out the window when I saw Alexa look over at me standing there looking dumbstruck at what was going on. "Lynn?!"
"You motherfucker!"
"I can explain I swear."
"You have 10 seconds to explain why you're about to fingerbang this bitch on our couch!"
"She's just some random girl, I don't even know her. She means nothing to me. I had to pay her to be honest to even come her." Alexa explained and I could feel the tears welling up in me right now but I would not let her see me cry. Not when I should be knocking her teeth out. "You tried to cheat on me with a prostitute pretty much! That's it I'm leaving!"

Shouting so much was giving me the worst headache ever at this point. I stomped upstairs and grabbed my suitcase and backpack filled with pretty much everything I needed anyway. I took a pill bottle full of stuff to help my head before it exploded. I walked by Alexa and her hooker while Alexa cried but I wouldn't fall for it. I left my suitcase on the porch for Alex to get when he showed up. I was going on a walk for now, it was 10 at night and was dark out but I didn't care. I need to get away from that house before I lose my mind.

I was walking slowly noticing the street's possessions. The cars driving past me to the fallen tree branches and leaves on the ground. Everything was moving so slow and I started running. Feeling the tears I was holding back so long beginning to sting on my cheeks rolling down to my jaw. I couldn't think and my vision was a blur, my lungs burned and all I wanted to do was just stop. Stop everything. Stop Alexa, stop time, stop breathing. I ran and ran until I calmed down enough to realize I was sitting down in a vacant alley way.

There was no one around and I couldn't hold it back anymore. Letting more and more tears slide down my face and soak my shirt I let out a wail of desperation and anger. Why did she have to go and do it? Was I not good enough? I tried so hard to be perfect for her. My breathing was so heavy and so much was happening. I felt like I was sinking everytime I stopped moving. I didn't want it, I didn't like it. I began to move my head back and forth, it ended up hitting the brick wall everytime but I still kept repeating the movement. I felt distant. Like I wasn't in my own body.

After a lot of heavy breathing I fell asleep. All the activity made it hard not to black out. My head was pounding, limbs numb and heavy, and blood running down the side of my face. I soon realized I abandoned Alex and checked my phone to text him until I saw he called me 7 times and Brian called 4 times. They both left me text messages well over 6.
I scrolled through their texts.
ALEX: Hey.
ALEX: I'm at your place.
ALEX: Where are you?? Alexa is crying.
ALEX: Lynn?
ALEX: Are you okay??
Missed call 3
ALEX: Quit messing with me Lynn.
Missed call 4
ALEX: Lynn I called Brian he's out looking for you. Please answer.
ALEX: Lynn it's been 4 hours where are you?
ALEX: If I find out your phone has just been off you're in big trouble.
ALEX: We're worried please call or text or anything.

Brian's text were pretty similar. I had gotten a text from Alexa saying sorry but I don't care about her anymore. It was now 6AM and I was aching. I took some pills for my headache and called Alex.
The ringing caused a little panic in me but after the second ring it was too late to hang up.
"Lynn?! Where are you? Where have you been? Are you okay?"
I recognized the voice as Alex but Brian was talking in the background asking the same questions as Alex.
"Hey Alex goodmorning to you too."
"Now is not the time to be joking Lynn. What happened?"
I was dreading that question but I new it was coming. It made me want to cry again but I was all cried out.
"Alexa...she cheated. I ran away and slept in an alley for the night."
"Lynn! Do you know how much danger you put yourself in by doing that!?"
"No I was too busy crying to think about my safety Alex!"
I never really shouted ever at Alex and Brian but I was just really agitated. They had good reason to yell at me. I left without any trace of where I was going and not just that but slept in some random area unprotected and vulnerable. Also leaving them worried was also pretty horrible of me to do.
"I'm sorry Lynn..Where are you? We'll pick you right now."
After looking around I realized I was near the music store that sold most of my favorite albums.
"I'm near the music store on grand park street. And Alex,Brian, thank you so much."
They hung up after saying goodbye and saying they were on their way. I waited listening to the sounds of other things going on around me. I felt numb, staring at the other end of the alley in the fetal position trying to not focus on her. I didn't really know what to think but I knew I'll probably feel like this for awhile. I felt like I had no purpose right now. I felt no emotion but all of them at the same time.

"Lynn are you okay?"
There were Brian and Alex running towards me with their van in the background. I nodded not wanting to talk right now. They understood and helped me into the seat of the van after cleaning the blood off my face and put some disinfectant medicine on the source of the bleeding on my head.
They tried to cheer me up by reminding me of all the people that will be coming to see us at Warped Tour. Can't Wait.

{Hi everyone who is reading this. I know this is kinda depressing but I will try to update daily and it will get better. Have fun. I'll also make sure to add humor to this}