I Do | LS

3. L

Song Of The Chapter: Nearly Lost You by Screaming Trees

After a few songs, Harry's weight was starting to get heavier and harder to hold. I'm not calling him fat - he was anything but fat - however, considering I was so much smaller than him, it was a struggle.

Not only that, but the boy in my arms was drunk. Drunk and uncoordinated. His arms kept slipping off my shoulders and he continued to lean on me so I had to push back with the same amount of force in order to not fall. To say the least, it was a mess. We were a mess.

Harry started to whisper inaudible things into my ear and I huffed, "Alright, c'mon big boy, let's get you home."

"Louis," he moaned, and kissed my neck. His breath was hot on my skin and his lips lingered longer than they should've. I froze in place, and memories of when the two of us were this close came flooding back.

I remember the first time Harry seductively kissed my neck.

"Boobear." Harry blew on my neck from behind.

Our first concert officially as One Direction had just ended. The boys and I were beyond ecstatic about how everything had gone and the way our fans cheered for us. Then I sat in Harry's and I's tour bus, tweeting about the first show ever and complete support from the fans.

"Hm?" I smiled and looked up at him. He came from behind and stood infront of me. He was shirtless - took it off when we left the stadium. At the time, he was smaller than me. He looked like a young boy who had an adorable tummy. I couldn't help but gaze at him longingly.

Harry smiled innocently then sat down to straddle me. His legs were on each side of me and his hands rested lightly on my neck. I put my hands on his bare hips. My face was close to his in no time at all.

He kissed my forehead. Then he kissed my nose. But instead of Harry kissing my lips too, his lips lingered over mine.

"You know I like you, right, Lou?" He asked quietly. I nodded my head, because there was clearly something between us.

"I like you." He repeated. "A lot."

Before I had time to speak, Harry slowly kissed my lips then trailed down to the skin of my neck. His kissed multiple times, each time I would pull him closer.

"Lou." He moaned against my neck, sending shivers up my spine.

My breath hitched and the heart inside me was beating a thousand times a second. Harry's call of my name circled around and didn't leave.

"Harry, you're going to have to put some kind of effort into helping me get you home."

"Alright." He mumbled.

He held onto my side like a lost puppy; one arm was around my shoulder, holding on for dear life, and the other was holding onto my hand which was around his shoulder. I kept one hand on his stomach to keep him in balance. My only priority was to get Harry home and safe.

We made our way through the venue, but of course a few people were staring like there was something wrong with us. I told Harry to keep his head down in order to reduce the stares, and even through he was unbelievably drunk, he managed to listen.

Almost to the door, Eleanor saw the two of us. She warned me before to stay away from Harry, but I never technically agreed - it was a ridiculous idea. She came strolling towards us, staying as calm as possible. When she reached us she asked, "Where are you going?"

"Where do you think I'm going?" I retorted.

"Nowhere. You're staying here." She clarified with a duh tone.

"I'm taking my Harry home." The 'my' slipped out - and I've never shut my mouth so fast in my whole life. Thankfully, though, everything around us was so loud that Eleanor didn't hear. I turned away with Harry and opened the door. A hand pulled me to a stop.

"I said, you're staying-"

"Get." I growled. "Off."

Eleanor let go of me. I knew I couldn't be too hostile but she was getting in my way. Honestly, it was getting on my nerves. What a bad way to start off a new marriage.

-

I was in Harry's room, putting him down for bed. He plopped onto his bed with an 'oompf' and sloppily smiled. His arm was outstretched then slapped down on the bed.

"Lay down, Lou."

"I have to get back to El, Harry." I came up with an excuse to go, but was tempted to take his offer. Laying with the boy I used to always lay with seemed better than going to my own wife. What the hell.

"You don't have to, let's be honest." He slurred and sat up.

"Yeah." I admitted under my breath. "Maybe just a minute, hm?"

"Just a minute." He nodded.

I made my way over and laid down next to Harry. I was on my side so I could get a full look at him and he was doing the same. Harry lifted his hand slowly to my face and traced his fingertips over my lips. He smiled.

"Remember that video diary from way back, when you said you'd marry me? When you were my superman."

"Yeah." I said. The topic was depressing; our better days were years ago.

"Why didn't you?" He asked solemnly as his hand went still.

I replied, "I can't really give you an answer, honestly. I guess I just - fuck, Harry. Don't act like you don't know why, I'm begging you. It's not my fault; you know I would have married you in the snap of a finger. But management - those assholes gave us no control over our outside life. They had control over everything, everything. Even the concerts. Like when we had to stay away from each other, for example. It wasn't because I was angry at you or hated you, it was all because of management. Do you know how much I despised to be away from you, and to act like we had nothing? I'm just - I'm really sorry about it all."

Harry shook his head, but smiled, "It's okay."

"No it's not." I sighed. "This happened all because of me; thinking I could act out childishly and love who I wanted to love."

"Shut up, Lou."

I did, only for Harry.

"I know I can't kiss you," Harry sighed,
"but could I atleast peck your cheek? One last time."

I nodded because all I wanted right now was his touch. I wanted to let Harry know how much I still cared for him and that he would stay my number one.

Then Harry kissed my cheek. His lips were soft and careful like he was afraid something might happen. But as quick as it happened, it was over.

"Have a good night, Tomlinson." Harry grinned then closed his eyes. He was out.

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