E.T. (A Neptune's Novel)

Chapter 11

     “I’m so sorry, Mandy. For all the pain I caused you when I left. I did not intend to do that. But he forced me. Fuck him!” He started to get angry.

     “Justin, it’s alright. I am here now. Maybe we can go back to where we stopped before. As...best friends,” half asking and half – pleading.

     He looked at me with solemn eyes. Tore the room inside my heart I never planned to open again. He stared into my soul with his eyes, deep and dark. He laughed and shook his head.

     “Not now and not ever. As long as I’m with them I can’t be with you like before,” he answered.

     “What? What do you mean? You can’t be my best guy friend anymore?” I asked him, shaking his arms.

     “No. Even if you plead to me, I can’t do anything about it. I need to obey if you still want to live. And let’s just drop this topic. What I want to know is that who will be you escort to the dance?” he asked me.

     By the time those words got out from his mouth, my heart started pounding loud. What am I suppose to say? I already decided who I will go with, but I don’t want to hurt anyone. If only I can say ‘yes’ to both of them. I looked at him, scratching my head. Geez, why does this have to be so hard to say? C'mon where’s the self – esteem now, Mandy?

     “I – IdecidedtogowithNeptune” I uttered

     His eyebrows furrowed. “I didn’t quite catch you words” he smiled.

     Ugh.                                                                                       

     “I decided  to go with Netpune. I’m sorry” I looked down, avoiding to meet his stare.

     “Oh, I see.” He said

     That’s it? No getting angry at me or shouting or even cursing?! Weird… I even expect him throwing things around because of frustration, but nothing even happened.

     “Is it okay with you?” I wondered

     “Yeah. Absolutely. I mean it’s your choice, not mine,” he smiled at me and reached for his pocket to get his phone.

     “Oh, bad timing. Sorry, Mandy. But I – I uh…Gotta go! That man needs me again. Old cow. Anyways, I’ll see you at the dance tomorrow. Bye!” he waved at me.

     “Wait! Who will you go with?!” I shouted.

     But I didn’t catch his answer but if I’m not mistaken he said “No one...”

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Justin’s P .O. V.:

     I sighed deeply as I ran back towards home, running upstairs to my little own room. It’s the same room since I was a kid… since the last time Mandy went up here. Nothing changed much, except for the bed that is a crib before. I run my eyes along my wall. My drawings and Mandy’s still hung over there, filling it with the memories that I don’t want to lose. The things we made as a kid still placed above my study table, filling my heart with the happiness we both shared before.

     The old giraffe stuff toy still lying beside my pillows on my bed. The only gift Icherish the most. The same giraffe Mandy gave me when I turned six years old because it’s the only toy she can afford.

     I brushed the dust of her picture, the only picture left with me. Others are burned by that stupid old man. She smiled her cheeky smile in the picture. I smiled, remembering how we are back then. And realizing that no matter how much I cry or reminisce, there’s nothing I can do bring them all back.  That’s our pledge in our gang. A lifetime service without backing out, no matter what happens even if it means staying away from the people we always love.  Tears started falling from my eyes. I wiped them away with the back of my hand, putting the picture under my pillow, and I walked to the bathroom to wash my face.

     The cold water traveled down my face, erasing the traces of dirt and also erasing the old Justin I just let out. Locking it up again inside me, not thinking when it will go out of there again.

 Author's Note:

    After weeks of not posting E.T., here comes the latest chapter of my story! Enjoy everyone. Chapter 12 will be up so soon! :D

   pillowheart <3