E.T. (A Neptune's Novel)

Chapter 25

      And I can't continue the words I started. When Neptune and I both spilled the secrets we never wanted anybody to know, we just can't talk. It's like we're so exhausted. No air to fill our lungs. Nothing to make us function. 

      Staring at Neptune's eyes are the hardest thing to do when I can't read anything from him at all. Not knowing if he's angry or sad or confused. I looked at the floor which seemed to be interesting at this moment. Maybe I shouldn't have told Neptune about my leukemia-

"Don't even think you shouldn't have told me, I have the right to know." he muttered under his breath. I looked up at him to make sure he isn't reading me too. 

"But, I just don't want you to-" but I was cut off by his quick answer

"And Justin needs to know as well as I do. You are his best friend. And it would break his heart if you didn't tell him anything about this. Even if it hurts him by the time you did, it will help you if you also have him with you." Neptune added. 

          And I thought, he is right. Justin has been there for me for a long time. And somehow everything that happens to me deserves to be told to him to. He's my best friend. Since I was young, there are no secrets kept between us. But inside me, I know it will destroy him. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I just don't anyone to worry for me. I hate to see them sad because of me. Whenever I'm thinking about the hospital, being there, confined and Justine or Neptune not going to school to wait for me, I can't stand anything like that. 

         But I also figured I need to. It will only hurt Justin if I kept this for long. It is better if I didn't lie, right? I mean, better than lying my ass off. 

"Okay, I will tell him. But first, I want to ask you about... you know. You leaving. I mean, isn't it stupid? You going to a different place in the middle of the school year without giving anyone a reason..." I trailed off. The lump in my throat building up. 

"I have a reason. About why I am leaving. And I doubt you want to know about it now. I will tell it to you soon enough. I don't want you hurting just because...I have far more secrets not telling you. Too much secrets that may hurt you. And I wouldn't want that right?" Neptune said, while wiping the tears that escaped from my eyes with his fingertips. 

"I hate crying like this, you know. It's like we're in those movies. I hate dramas really. But I want to know why you're leaving so soon. I want a reason. Just so I wouldn't be looking stupid falling for you and then be left all alone." I exclaimed. 

"I know. It's a stupid choice. I don't even know what I'm choosing now. Is it you or the other one? I don't know anymore too. But please don't blame yourself about me leaving. I promise you not one is ever your fault at all. You don't even know why I came here, right?" he chuckled but too serious.

"Yeah. I don't even know how you came here I don't even had the chance to ask you that too. So you have to explain that to me too." I laughed, but still sobbing.

        I can't bear the thought to see Neptune leave. Leave me, leave the school. Leave us all. When he came here, things are better than before, that's for sure. And now, Neptune telling me that he's leaving so soon without knowing why. It's just too much for me to bear. I just don't imagine going to school without the same guy with the violet eyes and violet-streaked-blonde hair. It's not the same having lunch with the jerk. Not the same without having the time of our lives with Prince-Charming with-the-heart-of-stone. It's just never the same if that happens. 

"Don't leave me, please. Don't leave me too soon..." I begged Neptune with all the tears I have. Looking up at his eyes, seeing he is crying as well. 

For the first time.

Author's Note:

Ugh. Sorry. I know it's been nearly three months since I posted but here is the chapter 25. Chapter 26 would be up sooner thank you think it is. This chapter made me sad too. What do you guys think? Comment your replies down below then. Enjoy, guys! Stay stune for the next one!

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