buddy system •kyle simmons•

oddly lonely

it felt weird to not have kyle around.

an empty bunk in the cabin.

an empty silence during meals and activities.

a lonely feeling nagging at me when i had to third wheel with daniel and kate during partner activities and counseling.

i grew worrisome that that would become the new norm, right after me finally transitioning into this fairly social 'camp'.

i began falling behind in my school work, not being motivated or enthralled with the idea of using my brain.

my brain already had a lot going on inside it.

crazy girl. pathetic girl.

what am i feeling? why do i feel so lifeless?

you've always been lifeless. stop kidding yourself.

where's kyle?

was he my friend?
was the prospect of me having a friend something unconceivable?

you should be doing your work.
there's no point in doing my work.

you need to do your work.

i need to find somebody.
i need to be alone.

empty, lonely.