it felt weird to not have kyle around.
an empty bunk in the cabin.
an empty silence during meals and activities.
a lonely feeling nagging at me when i had to third wheel with daniel and kate during partner activities and counseling.
i grew worrisome that that would become the new norm, right after me finally transitioning into this fairly social 'camp'.
i began falling behind in my school work, not being motivated or enthralled with the idea of using my brain.
my brain already had a lot going on inside it.
crazy girl. pathetic girl.
what am i feeling? why do i feel so lifeless?
you've always been lifeless. stop kidding yourself.
where's kyle?
was he my friend?
was the prospect of me having a friend something unconceivable?you should be doing your work.
there's no point in doing my work.you need to do your work.
i need to find somebody.
i need to be alone.empty, lonely.
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buddy system •kyle simmons•
Fanficthey both needed a buddy, someone who would understand