Save Me. {A Joe Sugg FanFiction}

eighteen

It has been a week since the ordeal with Eric. I work every day and Eric has coincidentally disappeared. I meet up with Tilly every now and then and Alexa and her met on Skype. They get on pretty well.
Everything has been normal.
Except one thing.
My anxiety has been coming back in random bursts.
For example: can't open a bottle = panic.
Can't find a matching sock = panic.
Can't sleep = panic.
They aren't as bad as when I was unconscious.
I still haven't told Joe or Caspar
and today is the day I decide to.

Me: Can we talk..?

Joe replies almost immediately.

Joe: Emma what's wrong? :(

I smile at his worry.

Emma: Nothing drastic.. Well that's subjective but never mind.

Joe: Come over in 10.. I have something to say too.

I freeze at his words. I hope it's not bad... I really hope he isn't dumping me.
I shake my head and continue scrolling through tumblr; the Phandom going crazy with memes.
My phone pings.

Joe: Well.. Two things ;)

I smile again and set my phone down..

*10 MINUTES LATER*

I knock on Joe and Caspar's door to which Joe opens it.
I smile and kiss his lips softly.

'What's up?' He asks worriedly.
I go to the sofa and pat the space next to me.
'Sit. I'll explain.'
Joe walks over, running his hands through his hair. I bite my lip. He can be rather seductive when he tries.
'So you know how Eric...' I trail off. Hoping. He will get the gist. Joe nods.
'Go on,' he presses.
'Well after that I got major anxiety. Like 'hide myself from the world' and 'panic at the little things' sort of anxiety.' I pause for a breath.

'Well.. After what happened last week with Eric... They've sort of come back..' I trail off again and fiddle with my fingers.
There's a silence.
And then Joe is pulling me towards him, stroking my hair.
'It's ok. I'm here for you. I-' he cuts off.
'You what?' I ask.
We're still in the embrace.
'Now that brings me to my first topic.' Joe laughs. He scratches the back of his neck.
'Tell me then.' I say.
He sighs.
'Well... When I first met you properly. When I asked you round and you came earlier I started feeling things that I've never felt before. I noticed the way you sit, they way you stand and the way the light hits your hair and makes it go slightly copper... I felt butterflies when I thought of you and I woke up the next day with the sound of your laughter in my head.' He pauses for a breath.
I take his hands in mine.
'Go on.' I whisper.
'Well...' He says again.
'And I thought of asking you round again but I was scared and too shy and then... After we had got to know each other better... When you came to the door with your wrist cut and tears streaming down your face... My heart shattered. And I knew right then that it would be my undoing to know that I couldn't prevent you or at least help you. When you pressed your lips to mine, everything melted away and all there was left was you and me. I felt happy and I loved every second of it. And this leads to my point..' He smiles at me. A million different feelings flashing through his eyes.
'Emma Madelynn Ava Graham Matthews.. I think I'm in love with you. More than that. I know I am. I love you Emma, I really do.'
My eyes widen. Soon my eyes are brimming with tears.
'Joe I..' I say. Careful not to let the tears spill in case he takes it in the wrong way.
'Shush Emma. I understand if you're not feeling the same..' He says comforting me. A hint of deprived sadness in his voice.
'No Joe! I do! I really really really do. I just... No ones ever taken the time to admit their feeling for me in that way..'I trail off, mumbling the last sentence.
Joe looks at me and he kissing me.
Softly at first and then passionately.
And, as I'm kissing Joe, I realised that love at first sight is true.
Because falling in love is like falling asleep: slowly, then all at once.
'I love you.' He whispers.
'Me too.' I whisper back.
And we continue kissing. Because we know that there's 100% truth to our words.