Save Me. {A Joe Sugg FanFiction}

thirty-six

*2 weeks later*

Today is the day.
My birthday. I'm now officially 20 years old.
I wake up at 11 which is pretty normal for me when I'm tired.
Joe is already up, unsurprisingly. He's an early riser and since he is yet to get used to time zones he is probably exhausted. I smile and how supportive and loving Joe has been with my ever-quizzical mother, my tiredness, cravings and Jamie's odd questions.
I get up and get dressed I to a blue flannel shirt and adidas leggings. I put my hair up in a messy ponytail, pulling out a few strands here ask there. I paint my nails red and sit there waiting for them to dry, scrolling through my phone.
Joe has of course filmed videos and I have been in quite a few, his fans are suspicious naturally but we were yet to announce our relationship and my pregnancy. I'm pretty sure they would freak out and possibly hate me. I just couldn't deal with the hate at the moment, I'm always on edge and even though I am eating more and I threw my blades away, there are days when I wish I hadn't. But I push the thoughts aside and think of my family.
I hear footsteps and a very appealing looking Joe appears in the doorway.
'Thought I heard you.' He smiles, walking over and giving me a quick kiss on the cheek.
'Good morning to you too.' I tease.
'Today is a very special day isn't it?' Joe asks, with a raised eyebrow. A smirk playing across his face.
'Damn I though you has forgot.' I say smiling.
'Au contraire mon amour.' Joe says in French, pulling a badly wrapped present from underneath the bed.
'Ignore the wrapping.' Joe whispers as he hands it to me.
'Joe... No I can't. I don't want anything from you.'
'Nooo, pleeeeease open it?' Joe whines.
I sigh and roll my eyes. 'Fine.'
It's big and heavy. I unwrap it carefully, not worrying about the wrapping paper: it's already ruined. But to treasure the moment.
No way... Shit.
'Joe... Are you serious? How much did this cost!' I say, my eyes wide.
'The price doesn't matter. I just wanted to get it for you to help you with your channel.' Joe says simply, shrugging.
I open the box and in it is a Canon Camera EOS 70d. I gape, it has two lenses and a Rode microphone. Joe obviously bought the both and put them in the same box.
'Joe... I... I- why?' I ask, too surprised to say anything more intellectual than stutters.
'Because I love you and I've heard you sing - you're bloody amazing. So I decided, I'm going to help you start a singing channel.'
I sigh. 'I'm not that good Joe!'
'Oh but you are.' Joe says pulling me into a hug.
'Thank you.' I whisper into his shirt, breathing in his scent.
'Right can we start already? I really want to hear you sing again.' Joe complains after a few seconds of comfortable silence.
'Ok... But I don't have my guitar... And I haven't practised...'
'I asked your mum, she has your guitar in the storage so I brought it up.' Joe says also bringing my guitar out from under the bed.
'I really need to check under the bed next time huh?' I smile.

~~~~~~~

I sit nervously on the edge of the bed, guitar in hand and Joe waiting to press record. He told me not to worry and that once you get into it it's fine.
Joe nods, giving me a thumbs up and pressing record.

I take a deep breath.

'Hey guys! I'm Emma Matthews and today I am officially 20.' I start, wiggling my eyebrows at the end.
'If you are a ThatcherJoe fan them I'm sure you will have noticed me in two of his recent videos: 'Different Types of School Teachers,' and 'Speech Jammer Challenge.'

'Joe randomly decided to give me a camera for my birthday and told me to start a singing channel because I'm 'good' at singing.' I do quotation marks with my fingers on good.

'I guess I should start shouldn't I?' I look up at Joe for clarity and he nods.

'Ok well... I wrote my own song... Which Joe hasn't heard either yet so.. Here goes...' I say and begin.

'Your lips, your eyes, your smile,
The way you light up my life so easily,
The day I met you I was lost and hopeless, dreaming about a life I could never have...
But I was in the lost and found,
Until you came around,
You showed me how to love, how to let go for a little while...' I start, my voice getting stronger and more confident as I do the long, high note. Then I continue, the guitar solo strumming softly and I hum along, my eyes closed and my body swaying. I feel completely surrounded by music and its something that I love.

'Yes we had our ups and downs,
I'm sure everyone does,
And one day you won't feel your heart beating for me anymore,
But I will because I'm in love with you,
Your lips, your eyes, your smile,
The way you light up my life so easily,
One day it won't be so easy,
I see you looking at her the way you looked at me,
I know how she feels under that stare,
Because I used to be there,
And I miss you...
I miss the way you looked at me,
I miss the way you said my name,
I miss the way you said 'I love you'
I guess I was right, it was too good to be true...
And now,
I stand,
In the rain,
Watching the world go by,
And I realise,
Oh I realise...
I was once in the lost and found but now I don't need you,
Yeah I don't need you....
Anymore.' I trail off and with one last strum on the guitar I open my eyes and look at Joe.
'How did I do?' I ask timidly.
Joe stays silent and I go up, stopping the camera and putting a hand to Joe's cheek.
'What is it?' I whisper.
'You... That... Wow...' Joe says quietly and I giggle.
'It's something I've been working on for a while..' I say.
'Did I mention I love you?' Joe asks smiling. I pretend to think about it.
'No, can't say you did.' I tease.
'Well I do.. So fucking much.' Joe whispers, kissing my forehead.
'I love you too.'

A/N: I'm sorry if that song was crap, I have written a song but it was slightly moooore personal so I changed it slightly to fit the story... 🙈

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- Mia ♡